I have to say thank you all for being there for me. I still have not gotten a reply back from my counselor about the job, but I imagine she'll get back to me before the day is over.
In the meantime, and in case this doesn't pan out, I've made a decision. I want a purpose in my life, and a way to support myself and any potential partner in the future. So, I'm doing something I've wanted to do for most of my life. I'm taking up the guitar, and plan on trying to learn not only how to play, but how to properly compose (I have a little composition experience, but not a whole lot).
I've wanted to play the guitar for years, but could never afford an instrument, nor did I have anyone to teach me. However, here where I live, we have an electric and acoustic guitar. My friend is also here and he knows at least a few chords and can help me learn. Also, we have Rocksmith, which can help me to learn chords and whatnot when he leaves.
I know it's something that will take some time to learn, but I've always loved music, and wished I could make magic like so many others have. I'm willing to put all my frustrations, all my anger and sorrow into something beautiful and constructive.
Even if I somehow don't make a living off of this, I'll be happy if I can even release a single album. As much as I wanted to make my own business on the web, I've always felt myself more creatively attuned, and I think this path will lead me to a much more fulfilling life.
I'll still come on here when I get the chance because I love you folks, but if I happen to be away for a few days at a time or even a week or two, trust in me that I'm working my fingers to the bone (I plan on learning without a pick, a true artist should have calluses on their fingers, a mark of their dedication).
Of course, if I do write up / perform an amazing song, ya'll will be the first to hear it (Besides those that live with me, of course).
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