i really did love her she broke up with me from long distance. she had become not only my gf, but my best friend for well over a year. so it hurts and i still see her in mostly everything i do. i still dont understand it. damn. we were supposed to do all types of stuff. but now its all in question. sex i have never had. oddly even though i joined this forum i am not a big sex person or at least i wasnt. i have never had sex before and really dont care much about it. but i have a freak deep inside that wants to come out. but i dont want this to happen as i am a buddhist but this ex really evoked something in me. she always talked about how big i was and all the things we will do in time just not right now. lol o well. but heck a part of me wants to have sex but to even think it i fel bad. i still feel that her and i will eventually be together. i cant shake the feeling but where does that leave me? I need advice on this. kthx.