Hi guys So here's my very complicated story. I'm a married woman in my forties but living away from my husband (in fact, we live in different countries). Over the last few months, I became very close with one of my husband's younger cousins (some 20 years younger). At first we were just chatting, going out for drinks with other friends and family, we saw each other during family gatherings and always had a good laugh together. Suddenly, things started to change. He told me that he was extremely attracted to me and would like to have sex with me. I told him that I also felt the attraction but that I was scared of going further because of the family implications. So, after a couple snogs, we agreed that it was complicated, even though we were not blood related, and decided it was best to part company. He then started occasionally texting me and we would harmlessly flirt with each other. The other day, after having met at a social occasion, he texted me saying that he wanted to be with me. He was then very descriptive about what he wanted to do with me and asked me if I also wanted it as bad as he did. I replied that I did, as a part of my fantasies. Two days later, he arrives at my door step in the middle of the afternoon. There was no time for greetings. We fell into each other's arms kissing, caressing, teasing and tugging at garments. In a moment of lucid thinking, I asked him if he was sure he wanted to go through with it. He said he did and asked me back, to which I replied that I was not sure but that I wanted him badly. So, we moved to the bedroom; clothes flew and we started having sex; great sex! I'd been in a sexless marriage for about 5 years, so to me this was close to heaven. All of the sudden, even before we climax, he stops, exclaims that it could not be happening, moved away from me and starts getting dressed. I asked him what was wrong. He exclaims that I am his cousin's wife and he heads to the door. His last words, as he walked out the door, were 'forgive me' and 'lets pretend it never happened'. I was left so frustrated, so annoyed, so furious! I don't know what to do. I don't know how to react! I can't stop thinking of how wonderful having sex with him was feeling. I though I should be the one who would need to live with the regret or guilt (if any) of having an extra-marital affair. Heck! I don't even know what to call this! Was it a 2 minute affair? Was it mind-blowing sex that was cut short? I need advice. I don't know how to handle the turmoil inside me! Even though he walked out, I still want him so bad.