i'm 18. i've graduated high school. i have a part-time job. i still live with my parents. i need some direction in my life. college was never really a seriously-considered option for me, not because i didn't have the ability or resources, but because i had no desire for it whatsoever. what should i do with my life so that when i'm on my deathbed i can look back and consider myself to have been a worthwhile, productive human being?