what are my chances to become a sex offender?

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  1. the_traveler

    the_traveler New Member

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    hi..
    this is not a joke.
    i'm 34 years old, never slept with a woman, never had any sort of relationship, stil living with my dad and even created one room for myself.
    i am attracted to women physically i may be have even high heel fetish as i'm atraced to thoese who wear them, and i see amatuer porn.
    so my profile is at risk of becoming one of those creature.

    however my status will not change, the attriutes which are required to form a relationship are not within my nature, the most indicitve example is when one company has left for 2 day outing in a hotel where they partied,and had trips while insisited on staying and working (i'm a developer) and while others may see it as depressing, i found thoese 2 days sublime, no phones, talking, shouting, no pressure, air conditioning to the max (very heat sensitive), and i actually got my work, done creatively.
    and through the wonders of techonlogy, i was able to see what i "missed", folks dancing in a great hall, drinking, while i imagine myself folded , maybe wearing ear plugs to protect aginst the noise.
    i would neither go on trips, as doing scenic tours serves no pourpuse , nor spend time in bars, pubs, i don't do small talk. infact it is safe to assume that i do not participate in any form of public social communication as bare no meaning towards me.
    further more, as i watch woman pass the street i feel the attraction towards them , but if i try to imagine them responding favourbly to me, i find myself alarmed as to what to do. i would imagine that these fine woman would wish for stable secure man (prefebly muscular and hair do, while am only 6'3 and rather 'large') all my insticnts tell me they would reject me at being out of their league.

    i 'm also ashamed to admit that i carry physial attraction as a paramter , while i myself am not attractive so by all means i should not consider it in a woman.

    i have no doubt that at least some would recommend treatment whether vbe cognitive or surrogate. and although i have been diagnosed with ADD,OCD and NVLD (each from different pdocs), i find myself wondering when do these disorders end the man begins.

    i have started taking SSRI'S against my ocd ticks but more to the point in order to eliminate my sexaull desire, as it feels "out of place" like it doesn't belong. along with SSRI'S i've experimented with the combo's of ritalin,conceta,strattera with every dosage imaginable. just to see how it would change me.

    so this leaves me wondering, will this urge subdue me?, will it turn me into a monster, while i fail to see how i can ever phyiscially hurt a woman (for the simple reason that i cannot even think of touching one, not to mention kiss, which is kinda funny considering i watch porn, but no-one said insanity makes sense).
     
  2. SWGirl

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    So, no one else is going to touch this one?

    First off, you shouldn't be "experimenting" with dosages of stimulants, reuptake inhibitors, and anti-depressants. All of these are powerful medications, and some aren't even fully described in terms of HOW they work (anti-depressants). In many cases, you should never take these in conjucture with one another (SSRI's and another anti-depressant) or you could have a major depressive episode.

    While these can't, "Turn you into a sex offender", what you're doing is extremely dangerous for your physical and mental health. You should NEVER see more than one attending physician for your mental health and you should NEVER be perscribed to more than one fo these medications at a single time, let alone mutiple medications from multiple physicians. You are furthermore at risk of liver failure, severe mental depression, major physchological events, and a whole slew of other disorders and health problems.

    That probably wasn't the answer you wanted. But damn.
     
  3. Texas_Red

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    Can't say much more than SWGirl has already.

    I will ask, have you made this issue known to a psychologist? If you really feel there is a danger of you acting out, you need to seek help and soon.
     
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    perhasp i was misunderstood.
    first of, i'm not worried the these meds willl turn me into a sex offender, i'm talking them to avoid being one, since i will not have a gf. or plan a family.
    second. i am not taking more more then 1 anti-depressant at the same time i'm fully aware of the "seratonin syndrom" danger, and have no reason to do so, and i'm only talking SSRI'S (if you mean by "SSRI'S and another AD", like mao, ST. john's wart or trycilics) i'm sticking to SSRI'S.
    so, i've tried ciperlax,zoloft and seroxat at different times.
    as for strattera, while it's an RI, it's NRI, so it won't collide with SSRI's.
    but i did try them with strattera and concerta. the combination of stims and AD's is well known to work, as trying to medicate a person who has ADD and anxiety disorder with only stims, may prove harmfull, as the stims may cause that person to focus on the depression.
    3rd. all of the meds i talked about were pescribed by one pdoc, except zoloft. my regular pdoc, who speclized with add, wanted me to try and take favoxil for my OCD ticks, and although that medication has been mostly for OCD, i've read that it's one of the oldest ones, and may have many side effects (like extra special sedating, which kind makes sense to treat OCD).
    so i went to another PDOC, for a single session , one who speclizes with OCD this time, and agreed to give me zolot, he was aware of all my other meds.

    btw ,nice butt :)

     
  5. DarkJewel

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    I'll let ya know
    I'm not sure I understand why you are worried about being a sex offender if you say you could never even approach a woman? Unless you have fantasies of hurting women?
    But I don't think you should stop taking any medicine without talking to your doctor.SSRI's can have nasty withdrawals.
    If you feel it helps take away your sex drive and your sex drive bothers you I don't really see an issue.
     
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    i don't have fanatsies about hurting woman, do have ones of rouch doggy style with long legged ones, but my main principal is that if she doesn't enjoy it, i won't enjoy it. that's why i can't have an escort girl ,(even though i ordered 2 of them to a motel for my experiment on full color field an oral sex, but's a story i'm sure you don't wanna hear ;) ), even though they suggested i should participate, i couldn't.
    i don't want to stop taking meds. like i said i don't think they would cause me to become one, i'm afraid of becmong INSPITE of them.


     
  7. Hot Wheels

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    Oh'...go on...tell us anyway:brow
     
  8. daver

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    Hi Traveler. First, I assume "pdoc" means psychiatrist. I also assume from the many types of prescriptions meds you are taking, and have taken, that you have been in therapy for a while now. That said, I wonder what kinds of answers you hope to find here? I'm sure there's nothing anyone here can say or suggest to you that you haven't already considered, or discussed with professionals.

    Is this the first website you've posted this query to, or have you had similar comments/questions on other sites and message boards? I ask because I sense you may have a certain compulsion to try and turn anywhere you can for answers, perhaps hoping that someone somewhere will finally offer you that magic answer. (Perhaps your username, the_traveler, also testifies to your need to search anywhere and everywhere.)

    Obviously, psychiatry doesn't have all the answers, and can't help everybody. I wish I could offer you worthwhile advice, but I know I'm way out of my league here. There is one small thing that I would suggest, however.

    I suspect that your lot in life occupies your mind nearly every waking hour, at least when you're not focusing on your work. The internet, with it's ability to convey anonymity, can offer you an occasional escape from your life as it is. Why not find a forum such as this one where you focus on issues other than your problems? (Just as a VERY trivial example, you mentioned your high-heel fetish... something that many men share, and something that can be discussed in a positive light, and not in the context of it being a problem.)

    I'm not suggesting you ignore your problems or try to run from them. Just that (if you're not already doing it) you try focusing on other issues, and developing relationships - even online relationships - that are based on things other than your personal problems.

    Sorry, by the way, if I've gone way overboard and assumed too much about you.
     
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    I agree wholeheartedly with Daver. I believe an online interaction here would be much more enjoyable and constructive if you reconciled to focus only on things that make you happy, excited, or lively instead of focusing on your problems. The Internet is a perfect safe place to explore the sides of yourself that you enjoy retreating to.

    Who knows. It might even prove therapeutic in the long run. But you'll certainly have much more fun along the way.
     
  10. the_traveler

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    well i have to an another forum where i was asked to fill in a questionair about parhelia (still on a todo list) . i'm not in psychotherapy, i don't beliave in it. as for talking about sex, fetishes, it annoys me, becouse when i hear women talk about sex and what they want, it turns me on becouse it make seem like it might happen to me while it won't. but online interaction is only what i have. actually the closest thing i wanted is to have chat on messenger with an attractive girl and make her laugh (attracvie, becouse i'm shallow).

    as for the escort girls thing, well a while back . i purchased this device neurotronics - laxman Laxman ® LAXMAN001 for relaxtion, and it occured to me what would happnen to a girl when she wears and gets oral sex at the same time. since i had no gf, i went for an escort, but since i knew she wouldn't enjoy me and another guy would simply scare over there, i had her friend do her, while i .. well i simply sat there, surfing the web reading my emails.