hi.. this is not a joke. i'm 34 years old, never slept with a woman, never had any sort of relationship, stil living with my dad and even created one room for myself. i am attracted to women physically i may be have even high heel fetish as i'm atraced to thoese who wear them, and i see amatuer porn. so my profile is at risk of becoming one of those creature. however my status will not change, the attriutes which are required to form a relationship are not within my nature, the most indicitve example is when one company has left for 2 day outing in a hotel where they partied,and had trips while insisited on staying and working (i'm a developer) and while others may see it as depressing, i found thoese 2 days sublime, no phones, talking, shouting, no pressure, air conditioning to the max (very heat sensitive), and i actually got my work, done creatively. and through the wonders of techonlogy, i was able to see what i "missed", folks dancing in a great hall, drinking, while i imagine myself folded , maybe wearing ear plugs to protect aginst the noise. i would neither go on trips, as doing scenic tours serves no pourpuse , nor spend time in bars, pubs, i don't do small talk. infact it is safe to assume that i do not participate in any form of public social communication as bare no meaning towards me. further more, as i watch woman pass the street i feel the attraction towards them , but if i try to imagine them responding favourbly to me, i find myself alarmed as to what to do. i would imagine that these fine woman would wish for stable secure man (prefebly muscular and hair do, while am only 6'3 and rather 'large') all my insticnts tell me they would reject me at being out of their league. i 'm also ashamed to admit that i carry physial attraction as a paramter , while i myself am not attractive so by all means i should not consider it in a woman. i have no doubt that at least some would recommend treatment whether vbe cognitive or surrogate. and although i have been diagnosed with ADD,OCD and NVLD (each from different pdocs), i find myself wondering when do these disorders end the man begins. i have started taking SSRI'S against my ocd ticks but more to the point in order to eliminate my sexaull desire, as it feels "out of place" like it doesn't belong. along with SSRI'S i've experimented with the combo's of ritalin,conceta,strattera with every dosage imaginable. just to see how it would change me. so this leaves me wondering, will this urge subdue me?, will it turn me into a monster, while i fail to see how i can ever phyiscially hurt a woman (for the simple reason that i cannot even think of touching one, not to mention kiss, which is kinda funny considering i watch porn, but no-one said insanity makes sense).