hey all so i have a problem, i have been dating this lady since march, we are very into each other, have talked over getting engaged, looked at rings, and she will be getting one around christmas. we are very happy together. we took things decently slow, she has only had one other sex partner, i have had a couple more than her, but not by much. at first we were not going to have sex, but everything else was fair game, then she told me that she wanted it really bad so we have been having sex since about may/june, we have great sex together she says it all the time and has told a couple friends as well. a few times throughout the time we have been having sex, we have talked about being done and waiting for marriage for the rest, which i honestly have no problem with, we are very sexually compatible in addition to everything else that we have in common. now we said that we were going to stop for awhile a week or so ago, i came over to her house after i bought some new clothes, got my haircut and wanted to take her out so i looked good. i get to her apartment, she gets off the couch and quite literally drags me to her room, i take off her clothes, a little bit after we start kissing, she tells me i can fuck her as long as i want because i earned it. well, we do our thing for awhile, then end up staying in and i made her dinner. a few hours later we get into a fight, she said that i should know that she didnt at all want it, and that she was very upset with me. at no time did she at all say that she did not want to do that at all, i brought it up, she said i had a great point. to be completely honest, this really killed me, i was very upset with myself and completely shut down for awhile. so then she said that it was fine and that she just didnt want to have sex anymore until we got married. long story short i said that was fine, i almost left that night because i absolutely hated myself when she said she did not want it. now the next night we were laying in bed going to sleep and she starts grabbing my hand and putting it on her, i was very very hesitant about this, but we ended up just fooling around. last night we were in bed and the same thing happened, but then she said that she wanted more, i pretty much stopped everything and then talked to her for a couple minutes recapping what had just happened two nights before, she said she was sure, so we did, and she has been fine with everything since. what the crap am i supposed to be thinking here? has anything like this happened to anybody else? HALP!!