I am 36 and have been with my wife for 20 years....Yes..before we got married I fooled around some and she was far from my first. This is not a sexual thing I am having difficulties with as for the past 6 years our sex life was hit and miss and we were separated for 9 months back in 09. This is about the feeling of not having anybody around...... After so many years with somebody from a early age of your life you just become accustomed to having another person in your life be it good or bad...call it routine I guess. When my kids are not with me I am obsessed with having people come over to hang out as I am so used to somebody else being here. Somebody to cook for...somebody to talk with..even the most minimal of a conversation. Hell even the nuisances of somebody else being here...like hoggin the bathroom even! :lol This is the second time in my life I have lived alone although its more like the first as the other time I had moved to Alabama where I have family yet I lived thirty minutes away in a town that I did not know anybody and I had a one bedroom furnished apt and it kinda felt like I was working out of town and staying in a hotel which I have done numerous times. But now I live in the same town as my ex and all of our friends. Just feels weird and very new........ Would like to hear others experiences and thoughts on this ....Kinda like a fish outta watter here...I am enjoying the peace and quite...the lack of bickering and every other feeling associated with living with a partner that no longer gets along with you,and the freedom...but I am so missing the family life.