Hi, everyone! I'm new to this forum and I'm hoping to gain some knowledge and meet some new friends. I'm a 21 year old female but i'm with a 31 year old male partner currently. When we first met I was only 19 with only one previous partner. My first partner was an a-typical teenage guy in bed (very selfish). He would make me give blow jobs but never perform oral on me or touch me because he thought I was "gross" down there. It also wasn't until I was 18 did I find where my clitoris was or how to masturbate to the point of orgasm. Fast forward to my current relationship. After being together for a year I finally told my boyfriend how I have trouble with reaching orgasms during sex. I had always believed a woman was SUPPOSED to reach orgasm through penetration but I now know other wise. Once I told my partner about my problems he began freaking out, which I understood. I felt bad for lying, but I had NO idea what was "wrong" with me or who to talk to. I felt safe enough in our relationship for me to tell him, I never felt like that with my previous boyfriend. (I had a very traumatic childhood that left me with trust and acceptance issues galore) I guess I was wrong because it's been a mess since. On that night he kept pressuring me to admit that it's because he's "not big enough". Which is THE farthest thing from the truth. I'm extremely small in that area so larger ones can hurt more than please. He also told me it was impossible because he's ex GF would "cum 10 times in one night". If that didn't leave me feeling like shit he also demanded that I direct him with a "yes or no" while receiving oral only to scream at me for not giving quick enough answers. Recently he's been claiming that I'm not attracted to him and if I was I would be aroused enough I would cum not matter what he does. I'm at my wits end with him. When I try to ask him if he could touch me in a certain way he gets defensive and tells me its impossible and I need to figure it out another way by myself. He's been cheated on, so I know where this is coming from but how can I talk with him so that he doesn't get so angry? Is there anyway to repair this, or is this a dead issue? It's killing my sex drive, which is only fueling his fire.