Hi, everyone. I'm having a bit of a kinky identity crisis. The thing about it is, when I first become interested in sadomasochistic things, I was under the impression that I was a sadist because from a voyeurs perspective, I loved watching others subjected to control/dominance/humilation/degradation, etc. But after some time, when I began to consider my own involvement in these sorts of things, I sort of made the realization that the dominant or sadistic role definitely wasn't my calling, but that I actually identified with the submissive end instead. Though I felt like others could relate, most seem to find this strange when I explain it. I've been told that it isn't typical - that masochists don't really interpret sadistic behavior the same way a sadist does, and therefor shouldn't be finding any appeal in what they do / how they behave? So I'm curious, especially of those of you who consider yourself sexually submissive or masochist, when you first became intrigued, what was your "discovery" experience like? Did you know immediately which role you fit into? Is it not considered normal to have an attraction towards sadism as a masochist? I don't mean acting sadistically yourself, but just finding it in others to be attractive, or arousing? If you understand what I'm saying. Some people have suggested that I may be a switch, but I don't agree with that. Because again, there is no appeal to me in actually taking a dominant or sadistic position, it's just that I'm attracted to that, and I like being on the receiving end of it.