okay. i am a religious person. well not religious but really into philosophy. i am pretty much a devote buddhist. my tendencies in this regard has left me without ever having had sex. like i came close as a youngster but never did it. when i got into my late teens-early 20s i completely suppressed my desires. and while i gained a proper perception of things i didnt like how life felt. so i got my desires back :lol. but i have in me a thought while sex is good i should only have it with the woman i will live my whole life with and have little buddha kids. but there are no guarantees especially after how my last relationship went. i thought i found my soul mate. she played with my heart at least it feels like it but i still like her a lot despite how it went. but needless to say it made me think that i am wasting my time with this waiting for the perfect mate trash. fairy tales dont exist and i need to man up and stop being sensitive. i have a lot going for myself and know i would be good sexually as i am very very gifted if you know what i mean. but i struggle between these things. should i just forget about finding miss.right and just find miss.right now? i am still young and have a lot of time to make up but i dont want to be a womanizer and i want a real integrated relationship. i dont think i could have sex with a woman i cant connect with mentally and emotionally. im so dumb haha. any ideas? do soul mates even exist?