I know this is way off topic but I have a sense theres a great community of people here. I've been sober for a year. I had been drinking on my off days (making sure i had a full day to recover from the previous night) to cope with depression. Yes I note the irony lol. My habits were not..."responsible" I'd drink to get to my apathy state (which was about 4-6 shots) where nothing bothered me. But the problem was I never stopped there because my depression would return very quickly (within an hour) as I metabolized the alcohol. I'd keep drinking to stave off the depression I was escaping until I blacked out. I knew when I blacked out cause i'd find phone logs of calls I didn't remember making, or have a few sore spots I couldn't explain. I quit because I had been dealing with an alcoholic co-worker whose alcohol consumption was impacting my work having to fill in for her and having to stay late cause she was too hung over to show up for morning shift. I didn't want to end up like her if i continued down my path. Did I dodge a bullet? Was I close to developing alcoholism?