My friend hid my backpack and it annoyed me and then they still wouldn't tell me where it was and I hit them. I didn't do it hard at all and it was to the ribs, but still. Then I stormed out. I don't wanna hit that person (or anyone) again because now they aren't talking to me and I'm afraid I'll hurt someone and I feel terrible. They were my best friend. My friends and I hit each other all the time (karate class) and it's okay because we all know how to take a punch and that jaded me, but I've never hit someone out of anger before, even if it was just a little tap. This person wasn't trained in any way. I meditate and listen to relaxing music, but I think that's just bottling it up, not actually relaxing me. I don't get mad very often, and I don't know why I overreacted to that. She's female :cry I hate myself. I never ever ever want to do that again and always said that no one should do that to my students. I'm looking for an anger management class but there doesn't seem to be any around here, I'm now looking for a psychiatrist. Please don't scold me, I'm really upset already, just please help.