i don't know why but i cannot stand penis. i like sex because it usually doesnt involve me having to look at or touch a penis, and i like having it inside me but when it comes to blowjobs and handjobs i am just utterly afraid. i actually feel sick to the stomach and rather turned off when i see a penis (esp. erect). when my bf tries to get me to give him a handjob i am really reluctant. He is kind and guides me but as soon as i feel it in my hand it disgusts me and i have to let go. i think i like guys, i'm not sure though. but i really wish i could get over this fear because it means i can't return favours that guys give me and it makes me feel really selfish. Apart from that, i have no other desire to touch/ suck on a penis. is something that everyone experiences at first? will i overcome this with time and/or practise or is this seriously abnormal?