Hey guys been away for while, but I lurk by every now and again.. Just curious of what you folks think of my situation..Or what eva you might call it. Lol. Ok heres the deal'eo..(In a quick summary fashion.) Just turned the big 40. Average guy junk 7" blah blah With maturity, I finally have good mastery of said junk. lol... Now after a divorce some years ago I had a pseudo sexual rebirth..B4 I'd have never dreamed of going to an adult toy store. (Now I'll stroll in like its my local Wally Mart.) lol. Which in this lies my quandary. I have lately been more interested in the sex toys more than having actual sex w my GF ! Dont get me wrong I enjoy getting my groove on for sure, but this new desire is somewhat concerning. Case in point-- What I cooked up last night..(Usually i figure these things out as a day dream through out the day) I started out w the usual caress and kisses which then leads to heavy petting..onto oral for both.. On to a soft blind fold for her. Feather on a stick all over her coupled w a bullet vibe all around as well. While doing this, I pull out a Large Cyberskin Dildo (Around 8" and wider than me.) w a strap and prepare. More oral for her and then to traditional sex for a while. But--My real desire was to see her w the toy. So I pull out and give her control of the bullet. (Still blindfolded.) I lube the dong up and just let it brush up on her wet pussy lips. Love that sight ! What I dig even more is watching her work herself up to a point when she is pushing, arching her hips to allow that big cock in her. When it finally gets in I'm about to lose it and I'm not the one stimulated ! Lol.. Shes always left a wet exhausted lady.. Its just been on my mind lately that I like that part of sex more than what I think I should . I havent spoke to the GF about it yet but I worry that she would prefer* me* more than what i have been doing lately and might be getting frustrated with the direction I take things. Any Thoughts appreciated !!!