This will probably be a long post so please bear with me. My boyfriend and I got back together a few days ago for the 8th time. We've been together for almost 9 months so it hasn't exactly been stable. Throughout the whole time I've been in love with him and I've only broke up with him once throughout that whole time, so the other breakups were all him. The most recent break up was on boxing day and we had an arguement in which he pushed me round a bit, he said he didn't want to be with me anymore when we talked after the arguement. I feel/felt hurt about the violence but still missed him like crazy and cried myself to sleep most nights because I missed him. Now that we're back together after me basically begging him to, I have this feeling in the back of my mind that I don't want it anymore. I am really confused because of the way I felt when he left me and I'm very attracted to him so I'm not sure how I'll feel if I tell him I'm not sure about us anymore. If I stay with him, it might just be much of the same which means lots of arguements and fantastic sex, I feel like the sex is what bonds us and I can't seem to get enough of it but we're lacking in other areas. I want to move cities and go to university and he doesn't want to do that for another whole year at least. I'm not sure if I can handle being here for another whole year when I'm not sure if I want to be with him anymore. How can I cry myself to sleep and then when I have him back become unsure? I'm worried that I felt more upset about the rejection of being hurt and broken up with, instead of being upset that I didn't have the man I love anymore. I can shake the unsureness for a little bit, but it always comes back. My friends are telling me that maybe its time for a fresh start but I'm scared I'll regret it and think 'I so shouldn't have broken up with him'. How do you figure out if its love or just an intense lust? I haven't felt this much sexual chemistry with anyone else ever. Any advice would be much appreciated, thanks everyone who reads this to the bottom.