My hubby (oksurewhynot) was on here a few months ago and found this community very informative, so I thought I'd check things out there too. I live in the Lethbridge Alberta Canada area. I'm happily married to a wonderfully supportive husband. I am 34 years old and have four children, all of whom still live at home. For the past 16 or so years I have felt a very strong attraction to women, sometimes emotionally, sometimes spiritually, sometimes sexually. I have never acted on these feelings, and in fact have often denied these feelings and thoughts were even real. Now however, with the support of my husband whom I've only recently (this summer) come out to, I'd like to explore the 'real me'. I am NOT yet ready to do anything sexual in the 'real world' (though my fantasy world is getting better every day - wink wink). What I am interested in is chatting online in forums like this, or maybe even meeting local people. I want to connect to bi-sexual, lesbian and or bi-curious women so I don't feel, well, so 'alone and freakish' frankly. Other than my husband, all of my core friends are 'religious fanatics' and are not supportive of GLBT persons -- hence I've only come out to my husband, my best friend and two of my siblings (only my husband has supported me). And my prior 'religious programming' is making it hard for me to believe that I am 'normal', though I do feel my most 'normal' when I view and accept myself as bi-sexual and don't beat myself up about the 'real me'. In fact, I can now say that I KNOW I am 'bisexual', it's just simply who I truly am (though it still is an 'awkward and alone', and even sometimes 'sinful' kind of feeling right now for me). So, I guess I'm hopeful to see if there are any females who may want to get to know me and chat (online, instant message, phone, live) or hang out (dinner, movies, shopping, walks, girl talk, friendship, etc.) I'm frankly unsure of this new world and a bit scared...but I am hopeful that connecting to others will help me feel less 'awkward and alone' in this bi-sexual world I now find myself in. Take care, OkSure I'm not sure if I can put this here or not but my MSN is: personal info removed Please keep all exchanges of personal information confined to private messaging.