I fantasize about my neighbor, even though she is so totally not my normal "type". I can't explain the attraction, but she's a "thick" black lady and I put myself in situations where she might have occasion to see me. Sometimes I'll walk around my house naked with an erection in the hopes that she'll see me through the window. When she's in her back yard I'll stand at the sunroom window with the blinds drawn and masturbate while watching her. I've posted about 5 or 6 times to craigslist confessing my lust for her. I'll fantasize about all these different scenarios that involve me coming over to help her with something in her house and she'll make moves in some way...climb a ladder in a short skirt, reach around me when i'm in the middle of helping her move some furniture...lots of things. It's nutty when I think about it...me a skinny pale white guy and her a buxom, overweight, very dark-skinned black lady. Just driving myself crazy thinking about it.