i met my ex gf about 4.5 years ago. in that time we spent about 3 years actually together. on and off relationship. we got along so well, i really think that we are a great match. just she is so jealous and insecure. it got too the point of ridiculous. like i had a scratch on my back and that was too her was from another girls finger nails. this was happening every day. she would ask LITERALLy 25 times a day to remind her that she is the only girl i have been with. she would run through a series of questions and if there was any inconsistencies that was it. if i answered slightly different than any other time then that would cause her to blow up and god was i in trouble. i was an asshole and a liar. and this would be over the stupidest shit. like what movie i watched with another girl, or if i seen another girls boobs. because it got soo ridiculous i started to have too lie about these little things to keep the peace. but i started to get guilty and eventually had too admit like seeing another girls boobs etc (there is a list that long of the little things its not funny) i know i should not have lied in the first place but i had too. well she deleted all the girls numbers out of my phone and things like that. this was a majorly unhealthy relationship. but still i love her soo damn much and its like i wanna be together again. its like i feel like i am willing too put up with this shit. i cant let that happen. i just love her and miss her so much. i have tried to be with other girls but i just dont feel anything for them and even though they are not fruitloops like my ex i still find myself missing my ex like crazy. we dont talk anymore and thats for the best but everyday i have to force myself not too call her. im just so depressed about it. i can get other girls. i am a decent looking guy, but still i just cant get by without her. i guess its cos i met her when i was 16, knew her for 5 mins before i first kissed her, knew her for about 20 hours before our first date and then became my gf. we lost our virginity together and were engaged at one point. she is my first love and i still love her so much. i just dont know what too do.