I am miserable today. I miss my SO. I hate having to be seperated from him! It sucks. I know I should be thankful that we are working on things and not seperated completely, I just hate only seeing him once a week and speaking 3 times a week. I have this horrible feeling in the pit of my gut that he is not as dedicated to working it out as I am. No matter how often he says he wants to be with me forever, I just have a feeling that we won't make it. I guess this stems from the therapy session I had yesterday, it was pretty rough and we opened up my relationship with him and exposed my fears. I suppose they are sitting at the front of my mind now. I really don't want to lose him but I have acknowleged that if he does not change his ways as well as me changing mine, this will not work. I doubt his dedication to changing. It is a very comfortable situation to be in for him (overly close family) and the second they realise he is trying to pull away there will be a backlash! I am worried he won't be strong enough to keep them at arms length. I also worry that he is losing his feelings for me. He keeps telling me that he loves me very much, he is just so distant right now, his therapist is pretty adamant that we do not see each other and we have settled for once a week. Still, I worry. But then again, worrying is what I do. I suppose my insecurities that I am trying to work on are being brought to the fore because I am away from him, this is making my therapy all the more difficult while he sails through. Sigh, thanks for listening guys.