I sometimes get bored and just have casual sex with chubby girls. Masturbation is easier, cheaper, and tighter. No offense to the big girls, but I have had a few that is like throwing a sausage down a hallway. A plus for effort though. So I hook up with a woman I knew in Jr High which was many many years ago. We form an attraction that was incredible. We decided that I should fly out and see her. The chemistry was insane and I hugged her twice and our eyes locked. I kissed her lots and we went for dinner. A bit of wine and come back to her house. I purposely had a bit more wine to make she she was guilted into letting me stay over. She almost attacked me and asked me to come " make out" in her bed. Within a minute, clothes off and I am down on her until she orgasmed, or a well done fake one. First time isn't usually successful. Anyways, no return oral, and not even a welcome aboard little handjob and the usual female guide inside her. Missionary, reverse spoon, her on bottom again. I was mentally totally attracted to her and wanted this so I thought. She lay there letting me toss her around to change positions, but she was a boring lay. She was tight too which was a bonus. I went to go from doggy and finish this because it was a long lay. Something was a mental roadblock and I couldn't come. I just had to quit. The chemistry was huge, and attraction unbelievable, but I couldn't get off. Was it her lack of participation, what? We aren't seeing each other again by the way because I stayed at her place the next night but really wasn't in the mood for sex so I drank a ton of her stored booze instead. I still kissed her, and cuddled on the couch but for some reason the sex didn't seem worth the effort. I flew home and apparently my drinking binge wasn't super cool on our first meeting. I do care a bit, but was it me who has sex problems with low sex drive? I thought she was gorgeous, and my drive is pretty good. I still love internet porn and masturbation, but have I screwed too many casuals that I am getting lazy? Is it the fact that I am used to one night stands where you get blowjobs, hand jobs, and dirty sex? Honestly it was cold, calculating and routine just like my ex wife and that was the FIRST time. Why couldn't I get off with this beautiful woman?