After one of my managers at work told me to my face that I'm not bipolar since I'm not taking meds and the stress that work is causing me I'm going to not be around for awhile. I'm going to be trying to get my old job back, same place just not going to be a cashier. Also going to be going to my local Nami office to see about getting help with a psychiatrist and getting on meds again and trying for disability. I'm slowly getting back into a semi psychotic depressed manic state and not going to be of help to anyone. So I have to do what's best for me with little distractions. Sorry if I'm not making much sense but my mind is jumbled and just wanted to let anyone that cared to know what's going on and why I'm not here so there's no worry.