This is a pretty big deal for me. And I'm sure that admitting that in the first place is a big step, but its not enough. I want to be rid of it. I get jealous and the stupidest things. Its time to come clean, I feel, and see if I can't get this shit under control. Anyway, I want to give you guys an example of my problem, and see what you think. Alright, Kronnie is a prominent member on here, and I have nothing against him, he's done nothing to me, if not having actually done something for me by being a good friend to my fiance. But, despite the facts. It still bothers me that my fiance has someone other than me (thats male, that is a factoid of the problem, I'm not jealous of females...ever. Bizarre, IMO) that she has called hot, and talks to occasionally, and so on. I don't know if its a preternatural instinct that controls my emotions (It used to control my actions, but this is unacceptable) and makes me want to tear out his throat. (No offense Kronnie, I actually would like to get to know you man, that helps more than you'd know...or maybe you would know. ) I just want that feeling of anger to go the fuck away, you know? I don't want to get mad about what my fiance does. No matter what. If it made her happy, I'd like to see her leave me, you know? But, I still feel the pull of blind rage and wanting her to myself tugging at me. We've made some serious headway in our relationship recently, including being totally open about everything, which is why I joined this forum to begin with. So, I would appreciate any advise, it maybe will temper with age, maybe its because of some insecurities in myself, I don't know. I would appreciate the advise, and, Kronnie, once again, no offense intended at all. Not even a little bit. This is my problem, I don't want to alienate you from becoming my friend. Writing this for the forum has helped a lot, amazingly. Maybe I need an outlet of some kind? Hope I haven't offended anyone. If I did, I can understand, I don't exactly act nobly when dealing this.