Alright....I feel really stupid for even posting this here, because in my opinion, this is a very silly problem. In fact, it shouldn't even be a problem. So, here goes... Alright, my fiance and I have been together for about 2.5 years. My fiance used to watch porn, but when we started being sexually active, stopped, because he didn't need the sexual release because we were having ample sex. Well, this summer, we've not been together so much, because I'm working on my college campus, while he's back at his place doing his own thing. We get to see one another every few weeks, but since we aren't together enough, he watches porn more. I have NO problem with porn. I don't have a problem with him watching porn at all. So, when the subject came up, I asked him about what kind he watched, because I'm a very curious person, and I thought I could subtly glean some information about how I could do something different in the bedroom to please him sexually. So, I got onto his computer, and looked up some of the sites he uses. Well, the first site came up, and it wasn't anything unusual..Standard porn, I guess you could say...But, the women were so beautiful, it reminded me that I'll never be that beautiful...I'm a bigger woman...I'm not grossly overweight, but I am a bit chubby, and the sight of these gorgeous, big-boobed perfect women really got to me, because that is something that I'll never be. I mean, I'm willing to become more fit and all, but I'm not perfect...I mean, I have stretch marks, and all the imperfections that many normal women have, and scars and things. No matter how fit and thin I become, I'll never be that gorgeously glamorous. I mean, I can never compete with that. And, I know it's a stupid thing to be upset about. How can I get past these stupid insecurities? I would like to note that my fiance has never said anything to me that would make me think he wants me to be like that, and I know that this is my problem, and mine alone.But I can't get past the feeling of inferiority. I mean, is this secretly what he wishes me to be? I'm sure I'm just being stupid, but I want to be able to satisfy him just as well, and I am afraid by not being as drop dead beautiful, I'll never be able to, because I can't live up to that impossible standard. So, does anyone have any advice for me? How can I get past this, and come to terms with myself? I don't want our relationship to suffer because I can't stop thinking about how I'll never be that good. What should I do? Any advice is appreciated.