ok... right now i am PRAYING that my bf forgot that i post here. Heck, i forgot about the place for a while. I met my man online a little over one year ago. he was a moderator in a regional chat room i'd started going to. At the time i was in a relationship for about a year and a half and had just found out i was pregnant at 17. he and i chitchatted casually and on his request i sent him my pic (turns out that was a competition he had going with another friend, who can get the most). After a while we added eachother to messengers and began talking more frequently. one night i even got on webcam naked, something i'd NEVER thought of before then (he didn't ask for that, it just kinda happened). We were just friends, never really expected to meet eachother. Especially since we were both in long term relationships. but the more we talked the closer i felt to him, and eventually we started phoning eachother (yikes $800 phone bill) one night i told him i thought i was falling in love with him, and he informed me that he was glad i said something because he was feeling the same but dind't know how to say it. we met in real life in early september and i broke up with my boyfriend a week later... and kind of became his 'mistress' as he was still living with his gf. now, things have fallen into place for us and come this august we will finally be living in the same area (within 10 minutes) instead of 4 hours apart. and we will both be available to be exclusive to eachother.... the problem is... after becoming pregnant and miscarrying a year ago...i'm not sure i want a serious longterm relationship.... just when he's about to be mine i'm not sure i want him... i LOVE him, i know that... but the idea of a relationship now seems odd... whats wrong with me... am i just in it for the chase? should i tell him we can't be together? but i know that if i do it will break both of our hearts.