I guess I'm just feeling a little off today and wanting to vent somewhere. im just mad at myself for letting me get to the point im at right now... im nearly 21 years old and I havent allowed myself to get close enough with anyone to be intimate... i mean I havent ever even Kissed anyone let alone sex. Dont get me wrong i have done stuff... Me and a friend experimented i guess you could call it and i gave him head and he fingered me but thats all... he wouldnt even kiss me and that was 4 years ago when we were 17. I just feel like a bit of a freak for this. like someday when i do finally meet someone how do you explain that your in your 20s and never ever kissed anyone. I dont think I will know what to do. The virgin thing really isnt a big deal theres alot of virgins out there but not having been kissed at 20 really upsets me. Is it just me or is this weired? i dont know anymore.