Kind of... conflicting, eh? Many times when I masturbate, I think about tasting and swallowing my own cum afterwards, and the very idea of it gets me really horny. But then after I orgasm, suddenly the idea of it feels disgusting. This doesn't really happen with any other fetish or sexual desire I have, pretty much everything else that I'm attracted to is still appealing, or at the very least, just sort of a "meh," but never disgusting. It seems the only time I find it appealing is before I come, but eating your own cum... before you cum, doesn't really work lol. I have tried eating some of my pre-cum, and I liked it. And one time I thought I would try just scooping some up with my finger as I'm cumming and sticking it in my mouth, but then after my orgasm was finished, the same feeling of disgust came back, and I spat it out in the trash. I'm still not completely sure if I'm straight or bisexual yet, so that may be a factor. But I wanted to know if anybody else has had this experience, specifically people who are, or were in a sort of grey area in their sexuality. There are other homosexual desires I have, but none of them hold the same overall appeal that girls have for me, but I feel that men are growing on me. Maybe it's the same thing for this act?