Dear members, Please don't take this thread as a joke, because I am as serious as possible and I really need your help. Thank you for your understanding. I'm a 19 year old boy. I'm a virgin, but I started masturbating when I was 13 or 14(I don't remember exactly). I remember that at the beginning, when I found out about masturbation and when I started doing it, there was a period when I used to do it every day. I enjoyed it very much. Sometimes I also watched porn movies. As I am religious, I believed all the things they say about masturbation in the Bible and at church. When I was 14, a priest told me that it is a very bad thing and it scared me very very much. That was the moment when I started trying to stop masturbating, and I'm still trying. I don't know if it is an addiction or not. If I have to, I can do without it for even one month, but the desire still exists. After that very moment, when I was told by the priest that it is very bad, I've never enjoyed it as much as before. My problem is that this evolved into a guilt feeling, which I started feeling every time after I ejaculated. I think it's my conscience. I didn't do it for 2 or 3 weeks now, but I am sure that if I do it, 10 seconds after having orgasm, I start feeling that guilt that I did it and I see myself the worst person in the world. And the following period, until I go to church to confess, I keep feeling guilty for it. I think this is not something normal. The thing I'm afraid about the most is whether I am going to feel the same guilt if I will sleep with my future girlfriend(when I will have one). I would also like to say that I've always been a very emotive, nervous person and that's why (I think) I get excited in a few seconds anytime and come to ejaculate very early. If I'm not excited I can still get an erection easily, and then I don't ejaculate so fast. But if I'm excited, either by kissing a girl or watching a porn movie, I ejaculate very very early.(sometimes in 30 seconds). I feel that I simply can't relax when being with a girl, because the idea of having sex makes me very nervous... I think that you understand my concerns. I'm afraid that I might have problems in my future relationships. And I don't know what is good for me, and what isn't. That's why I would like to ask for your help, if possible. Please tell me your opinion on what I've written, and please, after writing your response, answer my questions: 1) Should I continue my abstinence as long as I can(but with a daily very strong desire) or should I masturbate from time to time (but feeling that guilt)? 2) Could an abstinence of this kind affect me physically or psychologically? 3) What can I do against this guilt feeling? 4) What can I do in order not to be so nervous and ejaculate so early? Because it is impossible to tell and ask you everything, I would also like to ask you to give me all sorts of other advice about anything you think it is important for me to know, and please ask me anything you want or anything you need to know in order to help me. Sorry for being so long, but I wanted to tell you everything I could at the moment of writing. I really need your help. I'm waiting for your answer and thank you in advance.