Forgive me if this sounds a little muddled I'm a little bit tippsy as I'm two thirds of the way through a bottle of wine... I stumbled back across this forum just now, I remember posting here a few months ago with not very satisfying results, but I have something on my mind and I fancy giving it another go... Sooo... a while back my bf did something really nice for me so I did something I hadn't done for a while and asked if there was something new he wanted to try sexually... My bf is a fucking idiot when it comes to sex... he wasn't very sexually experienced when we got together and a lot of the things he's done in our sex life have just been ... well fucking stupid which is one of the reasons why I stopped asking him to suggest stuff we can do when during sex... Well this time when I asked him what he decided he wanted to do was for me to use a dildo on him... and he was all excited and I knew he'd been thinking about it for a while... and I just thought this is a stupid fucking idea that's not going to end well... I'd done it with previous bf's and I'd told him that so he knew I didn't have any moral reason to say no... and I didn't have the heart to say "look every time you ask to do something it ends up badly"... He is a pretty good lover... considerate, athletic and dominant when he finally took the hint.. but it's just the more adventurous side of things he's not good at.. So I said fine and I decided I'd do it there onn then... It actually went pretty well... he was doing better than the other guys I'd done it to on their first attempt... up untill he ejaculated which for some reason freaked him out... So he goes all quite and I give him a bit of a cuddle.... and then after 10 mins or so I get him hard again... This would have been his queue to take charge, fuck me into the middle of next week and show me who's boss... which is what other guys have done... But instead he just kind of got all pettish and lay there... It was the same the next morning and it lasted for a few days... he didn't seem to have any energy when he was fucking me... So a few days later he asked me to do it again and I just said no fucking way... Which resulted in a week long charm offensive untill I agreeed to do it... He wasn't as bad the second time... but as far as I'm concerned he fucks me not the other way round... any other guy I've ever done it to has been really keen to revert to that dynamic as soon as I've finished ... so I'm not really happy fucking up our sex life just because he wants to take it up the bum... Please excuse any typo's or general incoherence... I tried to proof read by my eyes are struggling to focus..