I really need to hear from males out there. My husband has recently told me he wants to suck another man off and swallow his cum. He says he is not gay and not bi. He just wants cum. He talks about it all day via text with me. He wants me to write stories for him daily and send them through to him while he is at work. he texts me constantly telling me he wants another man to blow his load in my pussy so he can eat me out. I honestly have no interest in any other man, I am a one man woman. I send his is fantasty stories and respond to his texts but I am doing it so it gives me more time to figure out what I want. If he knew I was having any doubt then he would end us. We have been married for 10 1/2 years and have 3 kids together. I am truly confused. He has just started wanting stories of him being fucked by another man and I am truly starting to wonder if he is gay. He swears black and blue he isn't, but talks non stop about wanting to taste another mans cum. What makes it harder is he wants stories about family and friends. I am not like that. Am I wasting my life here? I love him but I am starting to think we want such different things out of life. I told him I would consider blowing another guy with him, but honestly I don't think I can do it. Plus the fact he gets turned on by the idea of another man f*cking me I find it rather disturbing. I am the mother of his children!!! He says he wants to try it once and go from there but I don't even want to do it once. I am losing myself here and I am worried what I might do. I just want my old husband back and to be happy again. I feel like I am lying to him constantly cos I don't want these things and I certainly don't want to be f*cked by another man. Any advice, thoughts, comments, anything at all greatly appreciated as I can't talk to family or friends about him wanting to suck another man off! I feel like I am drowning and can't swim.