Im a 20 year old guy (about to be 21 ahh) and ive never successfully had sex. I am the only one out of my friends who has never had sex and I cant talk to them about it because i will be the laughing stock of the group, they all just assume Im "active." I have so much anxiety about it I cant stay hard. Ive been inside my girlfriend but i just go limp. I can cuddle, kiss, foreplay and get a boner no problem most of the time. I have received and given oral sex without a problem but when it comes to penetration I freak out. I worry about pleasing my girlfriend and my inabilities and when I cant perform it just perpetuates the cycle. Ive gotten over my size issue that every guy seems to go through, but its more than that. My first real girlfriend broke up wiht me because of this and my last serious relationship just took a nose dive. I am sorta being given another chance but im just going to fuck it up again. I have alotta love to give and feel horrible that i cant please my girlfriends sexually. I feel like i have lost my "manhood" if that makes any sense. I know I am going to be told to see a specialist. . . i dont have insurance or money (if its even covered) and im too embarassed to see ANYONE about it. I really dont know what to do I think about it all the time and it is really affecting my life. Any advice would be much appreciated. take care all.