help! Am I gay??????

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  1. yasid_9

    yasid_9 New Member

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    Help! Am I gay?

    My 2-year serious relationship with my girlfriend just ended a month ago. I miss her terribly.

    Since then I have been clubbing like crazy to meet new girls. I started chatting to a guy one night outside a nightclub (both of us drunk) and he asked me back to his place for some drinks. I knew something was odd but went anyways (I was curious). I got more drunk and he started touching my chest. I let him and it felt good to have intimacy again but I didn't want it from a guy. I ambiguously asked him what he was and what was going on but he didn't answer. I ended up just crashing in his bed and he tried to jerk me off but I stopped him. I didn't have a hard-on. He had his hard dick out and wanted me to touch it but I didn't want to. I didn't feel comfortable at all. I did admit to him that I wanted to wear some lingerie if he had any (I have CD in the past as a teenager privately - stopped 6 years ago - I'm 24 - I did visit a Transexual club once and picked up a phillipino ladyboy. Looked exactly like a women. I made out with him/her but couldn't do anything more....... ) but he had none. If he had, I don't know what would have happened. I decided to leave and told him I should not have lead him on. When leaving, he started to feel me up again, kissing my neck and jerking me, I had my eyes closed and went with it for a minute getting a hard-on, but then opened them, saw it was a guy, and stopped him abruptly and left. He tried to force me to touch his hard-on but no fucking way! I roughly pushed his hands away and left.

    I feel so guilty. Why did I let him touch me??? This is to much. My mind tortures me. Am I gay? Confused 24-year old.................

    Charlie
     
  2. Kronnie

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    Thing is after you have broken up with someone you loved very much, we get lost in ourselves, start asking tons of questions in our heads, and look for comfort and love from any where...cause we feel down and alone.

    Being with the guy, doesnt mean your gay, and the very most i would say bisexual tendances.
    I think most guys at some point and at some level have experimented with another guy ( maybe not always threw touch, but looking and wondering )

    Its a normal process for some it starts younger for others it takes a while.

    If it makes it any better just put it down to a moment of weakness.
     
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    Yet another "Am I gay?" thread posted in a state of semi-panic. First of all, answer the following question:

    What is wrong exactly with being gay?

    Also, you should probably consider the possibility that you're bisexual. Nothin' wrong with that. We're all bisexual anyway, just some more than others.
     
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    Maybe you took a look over the edge and didn't like what you saw.

    Years ago, I once saw a transexual that I was attracted to. The more I though about her, the more I wanted her. I had an incredible hard-on for her and I masturbated numerous times thinking about about sucking her cock and being fucked in the ass by her. But I never saw her again, despite going back to that place numerous times.

    Yet, I'm not gay and don't even like being touched by other men, i.e. if I have to sit beside another guy on a bus. I don't like having any thing to do with other guys. I wouldn't be able to keep a hard-on if I was in a 3-some with a couple.

    But I sure wanted to fuck that transexual.
     
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    Kronnies Right it jsut happens
    My Bf went through this stuff with a guy but he couldnt get it up NO MATTER WHAT. that tells alot especially if your a guy as a guy looks are very important guys are very physical you really have to be attracted to someone.

    Plus you were drunk so your mind was in a blur also You could be by your just bicurious and over being curious who knows just listen to your heart
     
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    Doesn't sound like you are gay to me. You were in position to cross the bridge and you didn't.... in fact you weren't even turned on.

    If I were you I'd lay off the drinking and clubbing and try to meet someone nice in a non-booze atmosphere. Club girls often aren't the kind you want to try for anything with anyway.... And you put yourself into a somewhat dangerous situation sit sounds like. That guy might have put you into his refrigerator or something.
     
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    Thnx for the replies everyone.

    Forgot to mention that I have never watched gay porn. Only regular and some shemale stuff. The CD was a phase as I have never done it since.

    'msduncan' you make a very good point that the situation could have been dangerous. I didn't know who this guy was and I don't even remember his name, just that he was as drunk as I was.
    I now feel even worse about it.
    How could I have let this happen to me??????
    I hope I never see this guy again.
     
  8. vampire raver

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    Well, to me it sounds like you were lonely from your recent break up and wanted to fill the void you felt.
    You aren't gay because you like females so that would only make you bisexual if you went with it.
    Don't be so afraid of having a gay experience I believe most people have made it seem taboo and then get caught up in the whole mess.
    I am in a relationship with a female and I love her very much but I kinda have a fetish for ladyboys, I am not sure why but they just turn me on, however gay porn doesn't so I am not sure what the makes me

    But what I am getting at, don't be afraid of experimenting, its taboo, just as long as you are safe about you experiences you should be fine, and yeah clubs aren't the best place to find a relationship with a good girl