Hey guys n gals, been a while... hope everybody is enjoying their easter hols. Some of you might know about me from previous posts, well i did manage to come to terms with my gf's past and im cool with it now after a lot of talking. I have one problem and it seems to be the only issue which i have at the moment. It does in a way involve my girlfriends past, but its not the actual past situation which bothers me. Basically, one of the guys she has been with in the past had a dick which is way bigger then mine. She organized it with this guy then met up for a one night stand. He was black and assumed he was well equipped, and was very handsom. She was right in assuming and it was the only reason she went for it really. Now as far as looks go, we're about equal, just a matter of perference really. (im mixed race btw) I have a very good body etc... saying this, these things dont really bother me because its character and personality which takes the main priority. What im hurting over is that she's been with someone way bigger then i am. And im not exactly small, im 7" and 5.7" around (measured the other day it got so bad) Basically this has just fucked my confidence, i know its all in my head and i've tried dealing with it but i cant I've spoken once about it to my gf, she said she didnt enjoy it that much because he was too big and he couldnt fit it all in. That i've gone deeper then anybody else and given her the best O's in her life. You'd think that would be enough reasurance and it should be but i still find myself hurting I havent fought with my gf over this or anything like that, its just my confidence and feeling inadiquate. I said, at least the look of it must of been a turn on for you, she said "not really, it made me worry on how im going to fit in inside me" But when we have sex and i talk dirty, when i talk about my cock being big etc... it turns her on big time so i dunno whats up with that. ...Sorry for the babbling, i just feel really shit about it. I cant even talk to her for reasurance because i promised not to bring her past up after a fight we had ages ago and to prove im not bothered about it anymore. it is linked with her past but i'd worry anyway if i was enough for her even if i was the only sexual partner she's had. I think its even turning into some sort of fucking complex because when i watch porn, i like watching guys like lex and mandingo style vids. Which doesnt help i guess. She says im more then enough and im the best lover she could ever wish for but for some damn reason it wont quit bugging me, i hate it and its not fair on me and its not fair on her. I just wanna get on with loving her and being the best boyfriend i can be!