My guy cheated on me....more than once. With is ex...none the less. Dumb ass me forgave him the first time......he promised it would never happen again..yadda yadda yadda.......then I find out he done it again. He begged and pleaded and wore me down...I forgave again. He finally admitted they had sex 4 times..... We are on another site together and he is a huge flirt....come to find out he has been texting another female member there...they even talked about secretly meeting *she lives 2 hrs away from him...Im thousands of miles away*.......but a tragedy struck him and that meet didnt happen. She sent him a text saying she was in love with him *she has never met him*.....thats when he told me about her. He promised to have no contact with her in any way,shape or form...but on that site they constantly banter back and forth in the threads....little innuendos.....and he knows it kills me but continues to do it. He says Im reading too much into it....its just words..doent mean anything. To me that is the same as emotionally cheating. Am I wrong? Am I reading more into it? He says he is IN LOVE with me....but does love his ex too. I dont know if I believe that. He also says he has no feelings for the other woman,but he is attracted to her.:eyes He knows he has blown my trust in him. He thinks I should be able to trust him with the snap of my fingers. Im sorry,but I cant do that. He has hurt me worse than I have ever been hurt in my life. I still love him....but I dont know how I can ever trust him or believe what he tells me again. Part of me wants to just let him go....part of me doesnt.Im torn. I feel like he puts that other site and that other woman ahead of me/us. He would rather be on that site than talk to me on IM. I guess Im seeking advice/opinons/comments from everyone.Theres a lot to this,but Im just hitting what I feel is the most important things. Maverick...I know what you think and believe me I think about what you have said alot...feel free to post it again.lol My head tells me to kick his cheating ass to the curb...my heart tells me to fight for him. Wheres Backcheck...Im sure he will let me have it with both barrels :lol Any comments/thoughts/opinions/suggestions/questions are welcomed.