Getting effeminate before I suck his cock

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  1. brianz04

    brianz04 New Member

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    PART I

    A few years ago my best friend used to fuck my girlfriend and during that time I became submissive to him and gave him frequent oral pleasure. Eventually he left his wife and came out that he was bi-sexual. I did things with him for awhile but then eventually decided I was straight, just with a fetish towards submission. So I stopped.

    I broke up with my girlfriend eventually too and stopped dating for some time. Recently I decided to get in shape and lose some weight. After some good results I began to notice things about myself I tried to forget about. I can't help but admit that when I'm thin I have rather feminine qualities. My legs and arms are quite feminine. My face is soft and being cute I attract both men and women. While being reminded I recalled my days as an 18 virgin when I used to cross dress and loved wearing heels, nylons, dresses, make up and other feminine items. I stopped when I met a girl I liked and lost interest after I got laid.

    Even though I long ago stopped those old habits, I was still remembering how amazing it made me feel so I kept working at highlighting my girly qualities and began shaving my entire body smooth. I decided I would stop denying that I'm a submissive male with female qualities. I also decided to dress like a normal guy and forget women's lingerie and just be partial in my discretion.

    It was until a few weeks ago I began talking to my best friend again. I have not seen him in well over a year. He was with a bi guy now and had a boyfriend which was weird to me, even though him and I have done sexual things many times before. We ended up talking online quite a bit and I asked him a lot of personal questions. We relived our stories and told some more. I guess I slipped into a mood of honesty though, and I ended up telling him my secret past about my feminine habits. He seemed interested and I told him when and how I did things. He then was surprised and told me how all of a sudden it made sense that for some time he recalled noticing something different about me. I told him I loved being submissive and sucking cock and such, but male intimacy made me uncomfortable. I also told him how making myself feminine and wearing women's clothing made me completely and obediently helpless while dressed up.

    I felt slightly humiliated about telling him, but it felt good to tell someone I knew. That weekend he called me and said that we should hangout. I felt slightly nervous having known about our past and knowing my vulnerability. I asked him what he wanted to do and he suggested we go out for some drinks and just chill out. He talked me into it and even agreed to drive 30 minutes to come my way.

    I began to worry about what might happen that night. I knew that I left my old habits for some time now, but couldn't deny knowing how he was. I couldn't deny how many times I hung out with him and made up my mind I wasn't going to do anything with him only to end up falling for his seductions and sheer confidence which always got the best out of my submissive nature. I then realized it was no coincidence that I told him certain things and he was coming over. Suddenly I felt anxious and went to shower and get ready. I found myself shaving and cleaning up nice for him. I picked out my clothes carefully and then left to the store. When I returned I arrived with some things to wear under my clothes. I put on thigh high black stockings, silk black boy shorts and a black bra. Then I put lotion on and made sure I was soft and smooth. I covered up my little secret with best pair of jeans and a preppy tee-shirt.

    I felt the lingerie hugging over my smooth body and I felt nice and feminine. I then waited for him to arrive. After a good twenty minutes he pulled in and I came out and got into his car. I quietly said hey to him and couldn't help myself and let out a slight smile at him. I noticed he was wearing a nice shirt and casual jeans.. it surprised me to not see him wearing a tee-shirt like always. We began talking a little and I said it's about time we hung out again. I felt a little flirty and told him I was happy to see him again. He said me too and we drove in silence to a bar and grill.

    We found a seat and ordered some drinks. We used to always drink beer together, but I decided to order a girly drink just to fuck with him. Somewhere earlier that night, I made a mental note that there was no point in fighting him. So I dressed up and decided to be myself with him. We got a good buzz going and talked about ex-girlfriends and our old memories came alive. I asked a lot of questions about the girls he was with, showing my interest. I looked him in the eyes asking with curiously. I even asked about his boyfriend and felt a little awkward, but it turned me on knowing he still fucked females... recalling my memories of watching him fuck my girlfriend.

    As we left heading to the car he grabbed the door for me and I immediately felt him checking me out. I liked it but it made me feel nervous. I knew I had lingerie on and it would be humiliating for him to see me in it. I felt vulnerable yet I enjoyed it. When we got into the car I looked at him then glanced down and found myself checking out his crotch. As always it was obvious he was packing. I felt submissive and eager and sat with my legs tightly together. He was making me so horny and wasn't even trying.

    We stopped at a party store on the way home to get liquor. I went in with him and stayed by his side. Then to my surprise, on our way out, he grabbed my ass and touched me like he used to do. It caught me off-guard and I was immediately turned on by it. I felt so helpless to him and began to want to him like old times. Except this time was different. I openly admitted to him I was feminine and that being submissive turned me on.

    After a short drive we arrived at my place. We walked to the door and I pulled out my keys as he stood closely behind me. I moved slightly towards him and put my body into him briefly then opened the door and walked in. I told him to go have a seat in my living room and that I'd prepare him a drink. I sat it down on the coffee table then sat down next to him so that our legs were touching. I felt my smooth thigh rub into his jeans and I liked the feeling.

    We looked through Internet video for something to watch and just talked some more. He finished his drink and then told me to make him another. I loved him telling what to do. I obediently went into the kitchen and filled his drink. "Here you go" I said as I has handed it to him. "Anything else?" I asked. He asked me if I had any good porn and I said yes and I explained how I had a collection of only really sexy women sucking huge cocks. He said yeah that sounds good. So I selected about a dozen videos and put them into a playlist and started it for him. "Now what?" I asked. He instructed me to sit down next to him. I got real close this time and leaned against him and put my hand on his leg. He then put his arm around me and I couldn't believe what I was doing. It always just sexual before with him, but this time he was making me feel like his girlfriend.
     
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    PART II

    About five minutes into the porn I noticed him getting hard and I went nuts thinking about his cock. I wanted it so bad. Finally I couldn't take it anymore and I put my hand into his lap almost touching his hard on. He grabbed my wrist and moved my hand away. He said not yet. He made me wait until he finished his next drink and I immediately went to give him another one. While I was getting ice I heard him coming. I continued to make his drink until I felt a tingle go up my spine as I felt his hands grasp my hips firmly. I put my hands on the counter and began to grind into him. He asked me if I liked that, and I said yes. He then started kissing my neck and worked his hands around my thighs, hips and finally violating my crotch. He made me get hard while he was behind me and kissing me. It was a new feeling and I knew I couldn't resist him. I was going to do whatever he wanted and submit to his desires.

    He then stopped and grabbed his drink and took me by the hand with the other into the living room. He sat down and pulled me onto his lap. He was quite tall and much more masculine than me, in fact I felt truly feminine when he pulled me down. He put his hands on my hips again and started grinding his cock into my ass. I started thrusting myself up and down rubbing myself into his hardness until I found him guiding me over onto my hands and knees over to the side of my sectional couch. He got me on all fours and grinded his cock against my ass. I started moaning and squirming while he unbuttoned my jeans from behind. He freely pulled my pants down to my ankles and while I was in complete submission and then I knew he saw my nylons. He didn't hesitant and began running his hands up and down my thighs feeling my smooth legs.

    I was then told to turn around and he grabbed my shirt and I responded by lifting my arms up so he could take it off. I was now kneeling on the couch before him in panties, garter, thigh highs and a bra. He grabbed me and leaned towards me as I fell helplessly onto my back with him on top of me kissing me. He made out with me as he pleased and I complied. It felt so good to surrender and behave like a female. I liked being undressed and touched by him. I was completely willing to do whatever he wanted while I was effeminate.

    Finally he got up and said "get down and suck my cock". I eagerly knelt before him and went for his huge cock. I waited all night to suck and after I had his thick shaft in my willing little mouth I sucked him off with gratitude while looking up into his eyes as he watched me helplessly need his cock in me. After a good 5 minutes he stood up and grabbed my head with both hands and took control of me and relentlessly fucked my throat while I knelt in complete submission. I was hard as ever and started rubbing my cock up against his leg working up a lust for him. Once I felt him tense up and cram his shaft forcefully through my lips, I grinded him hard and made myself cum as he freely released his huge manly load down the back of my throat. After he was finished I sucked the remaining cum from the tip of his penis and swallowed it down. Then I looked up at him and said "mmmhhh, omg I needed that so bad" and thanked him for letting me suck.

    Shortly after our hot sex I invited him to my bed and took off my nylons. I wore my bra and panties all night long while we spooned. I kept rubbing my legs up against him and loved feeling like his bitch. The next morning he woke up to me sucking on his cock again. After I finished pleasuring him, I went and made him breakfast. We talked and he told me he just loved fucking around with me being all bitched out. I admitted my enjoyment too.

    Later that night I felt a bit violated, ashamed and very dirty from what I had done. I won't provoke the situation to happen again, but I know that if he decides to come over I'll have no choice but to do it again. It's a love-hate relationship. I'm attracted to women, but get submissive to my best friend from being forever stuck with all the memories of what he seduces me into doing for him. It's like a helpless need I can't get rid of until I have my fill and then I become normal again.
     
    #2 brianz04, Jun 12, 2013
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