Hello, I've never posted here before therefore, I am quite new. I want to really just get something off of my chest. I'm not really sure what I am hoping to get out of this, but any feedback is greatly appreciated. I am 24 years old, and my fiance is 25. I am deeply, and madly in love with her. She is everything to me, and I would do absolutely anything for her, no questions asked. I know she loves me more then anything as well. We have what most people would call a perfect relationship. We get along great, we tell each other everything. She is my best friend, and I am hers, no doubt about that. However, we only get intimate MAYBE once (sometimes twice) a month. It is seriously starting to drive me crazy. I told her about my problem. She knows it drives me crazy. She also thinks we should have ALOT more often. So, we are both on the same page about what the frequency of sex should consist of. But she says it's because I do not initiate sex. (Now I have never really been in a relationship. I've never really had a one night stand either. Most of the sex I've had has just happened. I never had to do any initiating or anything like that really.) I do try to initiate it, although I admit I do kind of suck at it. I have literally tried everything I can think of besides blatantly putting my hands down her pants where I would feel like I'm "forcing" her. In my honest opinion, I am an ideal spouse. I do most of the cooking, she dusts the house, and vacuums. I do all of the dishes, I do ALOT of her homework (yes, she is in college and I do her work). I buy her flowers, I try to set up romantic evenings with just the two of us. It seems like her idea of an alone evening is her getting on Facebook, and/or watching some stupid shows (she has TONS of them that she watches religiously). I literally feel like I get ignored by her when we are alone. When I do try to initiate sex (which I do frequently), she is completely oblivious to my advances. Sometimes she will giggle, and ask if I am trying to seduce her, which totally ruins the mood for me, and I get embarrassed. I know she has a high sex drive because she watches porn and masturbates at night when I work. I work from 11pm to 7am, which in itself makes it difficult to have sex. Like I said, I have talked to her about this, and she either get's defensive, or starts crying saying she is not good to my needs. Then I feel like I have to cheer her up, and tell her that I love her and she makes me the luckiest guy in the world (which I truly believe). To top things off, she used to date my best friend before we got together. He wouldn't commit, so that's that story, but they had sex multiple times a day every time they would hang out. She has alot of sexual experience, threesomes, one night stands, and long term relationships. She was also married once before. We want to have a child sometime next year, but I'm starting to feel like that would put an even bigger damper on things. Is this normal? Am I just a guy who wants sex? I don't think I just want sex, I have went 2 years two different times without sex. Most women gross me out. Finally when I do find one who doesn't gross me out, and I'm as comfortable with her as I am with myself, there is practically no sex? I don't get it. I literally feel like I give her the world, and I get ignored when it comes to my needs. I'm going crazy!!!!!!!! Help!!!! Thanks.