yup yup yup - moan moan moan. Sorry I've never ever had a relationship or a fling or even a one nighter - and btw, I don't do one night stands. The closest thing to some comfortness is a hug and I don't get that at all - once a year maybe if im lucky. I've been trying to at least have a female friend but have non. Why? Well as sad or stupid as it sounds, pathetic people here are all about looks - im not pretty at all but to me looks dont matter and thats the bottom line for me. To these people where I am, it does even if you are just talking in general. Can't even get a hug or a kiss! And I see many people who are (sorry to say) worse looking than me with hot chicks! lol. You see and hear people who do it with the same age group or doing older women, I want that! I try to work for it, even if its fun but sex is not everything to me at all. As long as I have a decent human being who cares and understands, thats all that matters. You see and have friends who comfort you, spend time with etc... and I don't have that. Sure, "e-hugs" mean something...well, not quite really as I would prefer hugs IN PERSON...you know, one human holding another. Now, im not moaning or feeling sorry or anything but its a fact that even in your lives, at some stage, perhaps more than once, you feel like thats and its only natural which you can't prevent it. Sorry if you disagree but I believe this and have gone through and currently going through it. I know I know, do something about it and I have but given up also a very long time ago for many many reasons and have been put off by women some what but I still respect them. I'm not abusive, I don't do drugs or drink or one night stand. I believe to be a decent honest person who believes in self improvement both professionally and personally. I just don't know what to do. I feel that my severe depression is coming back and wish it wouldnt as it took me ages, with the speed of moving away but lets not get to that, to get it off me and I was happy. Trying to move away for good soon but until then, who knows when it will happen but currently suffering. What can one do? I thank-you for your valuable time and appreciate your replies, I just hope you understand where I am coming from.