As some of you might recall, not too long ago I made this post... "Well, as for me, if I have a big orgasm right before I am penetrated with a penis, then the first few strokes feel really good, and they prolong the orgasm. BUT...just a penis inside of me, without the orgasm beforehand, does nothing for me. Before I had my son, I had really good muscle control, and I was working on getting myself to come by squeezing a man's cock inside of me so that my g-spot had more pressure applied to it. I was determined to be "normal" and cum just from a cock. Well, during childbirth, I had a lot of damage. Long story short, no matter how many kegels I did, I got no benefit. I just went to the urologist and found I have extensive nerve damage and muscle atrophy. According to my doctor, my pelvic floor muscles are similar to that of a person who is paralyzed. The nerves aren't telling the muscles to retract like they should. (pardon me, if my medical jargon is off) The "cure" is biofeedback and electrical stimulation. I have yet to start treatment, I'm a bit shy to go for it. Enter the Hitachi Magic Wand.... Through using the Wand, I have discovered, that if I use the Gee WHiz attachment and put it inside of me, I can get so aroused that I feel my vaginal walls clamping down HARD on the Wand. I am not coming, just very aroused, but I can feel I am tight. It's like I'm giving the want a firm hand shake and I'm not letting go for about 5 minutes. I think that the vibrations of the Wand are having positive effects on my nerve and muscle damage. I've only had it for a month or so, but I can tell it's making a difference. I will try to keep folks updated on my findings and progress." ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I made that post on February 28th. This is what has been going on since then... I continued to use the Wand quite a bit, but did not notice a marked difference in my vaginal tightness, so, after much hemming and hawing, I made an appointment to have biofeedback/electrical stimulation treatments. My first appointment was last month, and the course of treatment that the doctor decided upon was for me to go in once a week for e-stim and to take home a probe to practice kegels with every day for 5 minutes, I was to do this twice a day. I had one e-stim treatment, and while it felt a bit odd, it wasn't uncomfortable. For those of you not familiar with this procedure, it involves a probe being placed in the vagina, then electrical current is applied which makes the muscles involuntarily contract. The stimulation lasts for 5 seconds, then there is a 10 second break, then 5 more seconds of e-stim, then a 10 second break, and so on for 15 minutes at a time. Ideally, these treatments are done once a week and build up to 30 minute sessions. So, I had my first treatment, and was sent home with a probe to insert into myself at home to practice with. The probe they gave me is made of plastic and had a balloon at the end, and has a air hose attached to it. It came with a syringe with which to inflate the balloon to keep the probe in place; it also acts as a cushion and gives you something you can feel to push against. I will admit to be a very bad patient, and only using the take home probe a couple of times in the last month. I also blew off my appointments to have more e-stim treatments. I guess I'm still a bit squeamish when it comes to having strangers looking at my genitalia. In any case, it was not until this past Wednesday that I went for another e-stim. treatment. When the doctor asked me if I had been doing my exercises, I felt like a fool, so I lied and said I was. (I know, I'm bad) She then put the probe into me and asked me to squeeze. The strength of the squeeze was measured and showed up on a monitor. The doctor noted I was still not very strong, so she decided to crank up the amps on the probe when she started treatment. She told me the setting, but I am not good with numbers, so I don't recall the volts that went into that first shock, but MAN, I felt it! She asked me if I was OK and I said, yes, so she cranked it up a notch and zapped me again. It was such an odd feeling to feel my vagina clamp down so hard on the probe, not sexual in any way, just odd. During the course of the 15 minute session, the doctor kept cranking it up until I got to the 35% range of power. Let me tell you, it was intense! It didn't hurt, it was just bizarre feeling my body doing something that I was not telling it to do. Anyways, after my treatment I went home and lay on the bed, put a finger into myself and clamped down. I could feel a huge difference. I have been pretty good about doing my exercises since then as I know they are working now. I will have to go for weekly e-stim treatments for a few months, but I am overjoyed at the progress thus far. I feel very motivated now to continue my daily exercises and look forward to the day when I can once again grab ahold of a penis and give it a firm hand shake. This thread was very hard for me to make, considering recent comments made about vaginal tightness, but I figure if it helps a woman that is having similiar issues, then it's worth the embarrassment.