im not the best looking guy in the world. I am REALLY ugly and colored. and no one likes that at all. the place I live in terms of country isnt great and nothing but superficial. so I never get a chance to go out on a date, or I get taken advantage of otherwise im "scum". so anyway, I prefer and love older women - mainly MILFs. I just broke up with her unfortunately due to her attitude recently and not understanding or making effort in the relationship as much as I was such as traveling to see her (costs money), taking her out and treating her (costs money), investing emotional/mental time etc... no doubt it was a decent relationship and was quite happy as was she. the sex life was GREAT and even she admitted it. coming to realise that even though breaking up with her is the best decision for me, now im back to having no sex especially with a hot milf! before I met her, I havent had any sex in 7 years. Again this is all due to where I live and how the people are and stuff and nothing i can do about it. Trust me on that. It's just how it is over here and no one knows what "relationship" actually means. its all about convenience and getting as many guys/girls as you can and being the "hottest" person to get attention and having no morals or values at all. me and her, we got on really well and did love each other but recently her attitude and dramas were just a no no from me. I also dont have time to waste due to me being a professional and working really hard with my business, so time is limited but also i dont do drama or anything. im a plain and simple humble person who knows what he wants, always has done, but never gets the chance because of the morally corrupted society I live in. But putting all that aside... coming to realise that damn... no sex again, and i wont be able to get a girlfriend (or a MILF) because im too ugly! she'd been through alot before (yes, the 2 failed marriages do ring alarm bells but im not the one to judge) and thought she understood me and things but clearly not. the things I do for people to try and keep them happy and I dont get much in return. I try to cheer her up when things are getting too much for her in terms of daily pressure and she always said that it helps when I do so. But recently thats not been the case. i guess things changed but she kept going on about how great our relationship and sex life has been. going to miss that especially the intimacy. for once, I felt complete. I really did. but... meh *rant over* sorry!