I'll let someone else call me out on the rug, or toss me under the bus. LOL. However, I'll say that I was sent here by someone on this forum who I love very much, have loved, and still do, whether she knows or not. Unfortunately she doesn't know, and she continues to show me she doesn't care, which at the end of the day makes me sad, but I put on the strong face that has gotten me through the last 8 and a half years of hell. Is it fair to her? No, but I have to protect myself. Me.....I'm 6'3, 265 pounds, athletically fit, and I'm sort of fucked up when it comes to being open about sex. I'm open, period. I want to watch my girlfriend and another guy get it on while I watch, and just make love to her after she's done. I say fucked up because that's the way I think of myself sometimes, even though I know it's far from fucked up. Anyways, if you want to know anything, ask, and I will answer. Trust me, anything you ask will be answered.