HORRIBLY SORRY BOUT SOOOOO MUCH TO READ Anyways i was dating this girl. And she well cheated on me after swearing that she thinks thats the lowest thing a person could do. And how she would never do that and blah blah...one night she fucked some other dude apparently she was saying that he was pushing for it and finally she gave in after they had been drinking together...but i hear that he had all kinds of hickeys and everything..and shes like "yeah it got a little carried away" Then the day after i didnt know all of this...she went on a guilt trip and said i made her feel like a terrible person and make her think less of herself becuz i didnt trust her fully and shit. Which honestly is true...she has been with quite a few guys and she is pretty young especially for the number IMO. And she swears up and down that she really cared about me. And whatever...but made me feel like shit then i found out from her best friend that she cheated...the day after she sends me on this guilt trip. And well to cut that story short..we ended up kind of talking and i basically told her that id be willing to give her another chance but she had a lot to prove first. After all this i didnt really care if we hung out or talked or anytihng. And then slowly over the course of a couple days we started hanging out a lil more and talking more on the phone and such. I mean her and her mom and stuff told me how she deeply did actually care for me. And the girl was crying a lot. And it seemed real though im quickly learning it often isnt. But i mean she was even crying like when the "conversation" we had about it all face to face was getting better. So anyways a couple days after we do this i have a friend that we kind of tried to hook up with her friend and basically the girl im supposed to be with talked to him A LOT. texting and stuff like everytime id metnion something shed be like "i know i talked to bryan" So it didnt bother me too much cuz i trust my friend but still dont trust the girl. Though i really wanted things to work out. It just seemed liek it could have been something good ya know...and i get scared that i could lose something good. But we all went to this commedy show i had tickets for...both our friends (supposed to be their date) and me and "my girl" and during the show the comedian asked me and "my girl" if we were back together becuz preveiously he asked if we were dating and said no we used to so he asked if we were going to get back together and i said "i dont know we will see" and she called me an asshole. Like whatever you fucked up not me. After the show i had a party to go to but a bunch of people didnt like my friend (im also friends with the peopel that dont like him) but i have always told him i have his back anyways. But i was going to go to this no one else was really doing anything so i was like...this is where im going whoever wants to come with can come...we had 2 seperate cars...and "my girl" decides to ride with my friend and his "date" her friend. which honestly kind of pissed me off but im like w/e its no big deal. so then im there..ive all ready been drinking and stuff and have been ther e for like half an hour and i get ahold of them and like "where you at" appartnely they stopped by my friends "dates" house so she could change or something...like w/e they eventually get there and all of a sudden a window breaks on the door...apparently they had arrived and i didnt know it and a mob of like 15 peopl echased my friend out cuz ONE person had problems with him...anyways long story short i handled the situation by myself...(i kind of have a lot of pull it weird but people will listen to me) and made everyone leave him a lone so he could get his car cuz he ran into the woods...it was kind of out in the middle of no whereish. and the girl i was supposedly with and cared so much about me...all i heard out of her mouth was her being worried for my friend..she never once seemed to care if everything was alright with me..infact even went so far as crying bout it..and blaming me "you said you wouldnt let anytihng happen" and i pretty much said this "w/e bitch shut the fuck up" and well i was starting to SNAP and im the kind of person who when this happens i black out. and dont have full controll over myself. And can get a lil psycotic to be honest i wont even lie. But we go looking for my friend and shes in the back seat and kept demanding i do shit which was pissing me off...and seemed to show NO concern or ANYTHING else towards me even after i made a couple comments she didnt even say anything back and i KNOW she heard me. something like "why dont you go fuck him obviosuly he matters more to you" and blah. Well as it turns out i kick her out of my car in the middle of no where...and she didnt seem to care didnt say one word but grabbed her purse and got out... and this was on like the 1st or 2nd i think was the day after and i havent talked to her since...she hasnt tried to contact me nor i her. And then im sure you guys know of myspace...well the next day as her myspace "status" she puts "yeah, i pretty much knew he was that psycotic, i told you so...but happy everyone's alright." And as her "mood" she put "Jolly" And well sorry for the novel i just felt some things needed to be explained tho they arnt well becuz i didnt want too much for people to read. But basically like i said no1 has contacted the other and tho i can easily get girls (had one over last night) and im also talking to her best friend..but not about her. But like i wont even lie...everytime the phone rings i want it to be her. Though i dont exspect it. And i really want to call her but...i mean but it seems it would just be better if we never had any contact again....liek i keep thinking oh she will call in a few days but im sure she wont. And im afraid to call her...and also it shows weakness to me..and like i didnt do anything wrong..why should i call. i figure if she cares then she will call. But i just dont know if she does care or ever really did. I just dont know if i should give it a few more days..cuz it hasent even been a week. Friday will be a week. Or if i should "man up" and give her a call and see what she says. I mean she constantly texts my friend...infact just yesturday asked him if he thinks shes a whore..and he said "i dont know you like that" its kind of what he does. And i know he dont want a DAMN thing to do with her...especially in anyway like that. But he dont really talk much bout that and i havent talked to her friend bout it to see how she feels or if she even knows... But to make it simple....should i give her a call?..or just let it be and let it die...and the big question is...did i overreact?...i mean she REALLY seemed far more into him than me as of late...and is always texting him...though i know she just loves to text too.