Due to having a very traumatic childhood, I developed Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or PTSD. It wasn't diagnosed until last year so I am just now coming to terms with it and trying to normalize my life as much as possible to overcome it's symptoms. One of my greatest challenges has been how I react during sexual situations where I am not in total control. It is very hard for me to relax and just sit back while my husband does things to me like, eating me, sucking my breasts or fingering me. I am in a near constant state of fight or flight. As a child when I could not flee a traumatic situation, I used my might to escape to a safe place. I would leave my body behind to fend for itself and take my mind elsewhere until it was safe to come back. I find that I am doing the same thing as an adult but not only in stressful situations; it happens at other times as well. A great deal of the time, my mind goes elsewhere during sex, especially when I'm being eaten. This makes it terribly hard to orgasm. Anyone else dealing with PTSD out there in SF? Got any pointers for me?