well, this could be a long story, so pull up your chair. any advice i can get would be great... known this girl for about 3 years now, we are best friends, very close. i am crazy in love with her and she knows this, we have talked about it alot. she has said she has feelings for me, she just doesn't know the extent of them. she wants time to figure out where her head is at, which i dont have a problem with. about 4 months ago she got out of a 2 year relationship that she is still dealing with, trying to let go of. we went on several vacations together this year, and pretty much do everything together and spend every day together. sometimes she will ask me to rub her back, which i will and have done on many occasions. the past couple nights it has led to other things. one of those times it would have ended with sex, but due to lack of rescoures(lubricant), we couldn't have sex. she got upset, and i said that it was ok and next time i would be better prepared, and she asked why i said there would be a next time because we weren't even dating yet. she told me that she was half asleep the whole time, and didn't realize what was going on, which i know isn't true, she helped me undress herself! i asked her what was going on, and she didn't want to talk about it because she has class early in the morning. she promised me that we would talk about it tomorrow, but i am going crazy because i dont want her to think that i forced myself upon her. i love her and would do anything for her, and would never do anything to jepordize us being together. i dont want her to be upset with me...she said she wasn't when i left but she could have been saying that just to ease my mind, i dont know. would love any kind of advice anyone can offer, because i dont know where my head is at right now, or what i should do or say to her. thanks in advance....i had to leave out some of our past history just because its way too much to type, so if anyone has questions that will help with their advice just ask.