Avoiding resentment

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  1. Sagittarius84

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    I have other threads to provide a little bit of context as to what my issue is. For the TL;DR crowd, late-blooming from me equals me being in the physical prime of my life now, compared against my girlfriend who has allowed Life Choices 2 put her in a somewhat sorry physical state.
    I have this ongoing issue where depending on certain decisions that she will make about her medication or other actions she will take her libido ends up going down and I end up getting cut off. I always try to take precautions beforehand to prevent such times but ultimately she's going to do what she wants to do. Now she's finally demonstrated some initiative and got her medication and health straight for the time being and is feeilng a bit randy. Now to a periodically sexually deprived individual, i know conventional wisdom dictates i get some while the getting is good. But i can't shake the pangs of resentment stemming from the fact that her unwillingness to heed my advice or at least to humor my suggestions are the primary reason we end up in said dry spells in the 1st place.
    I'm not advocating using sex to reward/punish behaviors, but shouldn't my desire to have sex in some way be tied to my feelings on how her decisions are affecting both of us?
    I feel like I'm either going to turn her down and explain my issue, further lengthing the dry spell, or succumb to my urges and have her do the exact same thing in a few months...
    Any advice?
     
  2. Jeff Powers

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    Well, based on what you've said here, and without knowing each of you, I would suggest avoiding anything manipulative right now. I would continue to love her unconditionally, to cherish her, and to act as selflessly as possible towards her with acts of non-sexual love. Make sure you affirm her efforts to improve her health and speak words of encouragement, especially if the receiving verbal encouragement is her primary "love language."

    Think about that.
     
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  3. Sagittarius84

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    ... Which has basically been in my existence for the past 5 years or so.. don't they Define insanity as doing the same actions and expecting a different result? At what point should one realize that utilizing love language isn't working? It just seems like she gets her sexual satisfaction and then has no impetus to change.
     
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    I think I'm going to just use lack of sleep as an excuse tonite(not entirely inaccurate). I just....can't right now, and every piece of advice I look up or solicit, especially in terms of men's concerns about their female significant other, seems to revolve around me either being initially at fault(not the case), or that doing more of the same is going to magically grant different results because of some antiquated notion that some women aren't capable of complacency when they are getting what they want out of a relationship without bothering to prioritize their ability to reciprocate.
    Again, not advocating using sex as a tool of manipulation, or to reward/punish behaviors..but I feel like she needs to feel a portion of how I feel regularly before we can even communicate further on the subject....
     
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    Don't over analyze her and your situation. Since she is working to get back to normal, your job is simple. Just love and support her. Nothing more, nothing less. You'll find that if you just do that and not bring up the sex issues, she'll eventually be receptive to you.
     
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    That's just it, a desire to be back to normal isn't the same as a desire to get oneself back to normality. One is an intellectual exercise, the other requires actual effort...I appreciate the advice, but it has a very gendered twinge that I don't think would be offered if I was a frustrated woman dealing with her male SO. This is not atypical behavior for her, it's somewhat periodic, and I am seeking to break the cycle, not perpetuate it further. My undivided love and support is what has basically allowed her to sink into these pits of complacency, and I'm finding it hard to believe that enabling her further is going to solve the issue. Maybe I'll start reading advice given to women when they have similar issues with their respective SOs. There seems to be more of a proactive push there, instead of the "be patient and wait" advice that seemes to be geared soley towards men.
     
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    So after 2 nights of me abstaining, and a total 3wks without sex, she(unprompted) suggested her birth control is the reason for her lowered libido..fair enough, though it has never been an issue before.
    I'm still a little salty at the notion that she expects me to be ready to go when she's horny, yet my horniness goes unrequited on the regular. She seems to be ready tonight, but after such a hiatus, I find myself wondering if it's worth the lopsided amount of effort I'm going to have to put in anyways...
    Its almost like i prophesied about this sometime ago during a dry spell, when she revealed she was scared I would stray as a result, and I looked at her and asked if she truly thought that was the worst that could happen. When she replied yes, I told her what she really needs to be worried about is when my libido just doesn't feel like bothering anymore...so far I don't look at a 1/4 of the porn I normally do, and haven't had the urge to masturbate to about the same degree. I've already decided that cheating isn't an option, and polyamory is pretty much out of the question, so I think what she doesn't even know is her worse fear is starting to manifest...
     
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    Sounds like your unrequited horniness is manifesting into a sexual depression.

    Again, I feel like you are over analyzing your situation. Never turn down a woman's request for sex. If you do, it better be that you're physically sick or truly tired. They'll understand that.
    But this also need to ask this question based on one of your previous posts indicating she needs to experience the same feelings you did during the dry spell. Are you forcing her to feel your sexual frustration? If so, don't. All you are doing is creating a rift between you two.

    If her medication caused her low sex drive. And it happens often with a lot of women, then you are not being honest with yourself or her and creating a situation that is not necessary or warranted.

    You need to embrace her with understanding and love.
     
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    People don't change. You portray her as a horribly self centered person. That's how she'll be for the rest of her life. I'll assume this woman is the person you describe in your threads.

    Some hormonal glitches make her feel desire now and then. It's the spells where she seeks sex. It's not a real change. It's part of the whole. She doesn't like fucking you, because if she did, she wouldn't just ignore your needs and desires when she's on the hormonal low. Not feeling desire is normal for a lot of women. Completely ignoring her partners needs during those times is the territory of the selfish, enabled ones.

    So, if you're avoiding sex thinking that will make her realize how frustrating that is and change, you're getting it all wrong. She knows what she does. She does it, because she doesn't care for you. It isn't for lack of epiphany. Or else, you've engaged with a very ignorant woman. You being the inteligente man you are, I can't believe you'd be having kids with that kind of brain dead person. So, I'm assuming she isn't completely dumb.

    Enjoy sex when you can, when she's in the mood to use you. Or don't. But have no illusions that you stopping enabling her will make her suddenly become human and compassionate and change.

    Somewhere in your life you've decided to spend it with an egoistic, cold person who's also a loser (lack of responsibility in taking care of her own health, etc). It's only going to get worse, as this person ages. Not better.

    Even if she has a clear, compassionate thought, five minutes later she'll be back to being who she is. And who she is couldn't care less for you and your needs.

    I don't know her. I'm writing about the horrible character you describe in your threads.
     
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  10. Sagittarius84

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    I really appreciate the sentiment you're putting across. You're absolutely right about how she comes across in my posts, but also and how it only represents one perspective of the story. I think I can own up to and better reflect upon my own biases when I can exercise full disclosure about my feelings by illustrating her as the bad guy. I can then go back and compare my writings against my actual experiences. Simply put, I need her to be the bad guy to be really honest about how I feel at the time.
    Some guys get a punching bag, others go to a gun range, I play racing sim games and vent my sexual frustrations in an anonymous online forum. Either way it keeps me from directing my anger and resentment in an unhealthy way to the woman I love.
    So in short, we're back on track a little bit..got a major oxytocin boost last with sex then having to get my kid back to sleep, so I'm probably riding high on some major paternal hormones, but we're good, and I feel like they can get better.
     
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    No one here can really say what you base sex on. It sounds like to me reading this, she is stressed possibly expecting someone namely you, to break her fall. You said in another thread she has a heavy jealous streak, thats probably just her feeling inadequate in the relationship and its projected in her jealousy. As some advice, don't be using sex as a weapon. but if you really don't want to have sex because of how the relationship is you should probably sit her down and have a spirited debate on why.
     
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