I'm a single 41 year old man, twice divorced and happier now being a bachelor again than ever before. I absolutely love women and couldn't live without them but over the last 10 or so years Ive become increasingly interested in having sex with men as well. I fantasise about it alot of the time and enjoy bi porn. I've acted on these strange but beautiful feelings only once about 4 years ago. I and a man I met on Craig's list performed oral on each other. Unfortunately he was just too weird and I got dressed and left but I did enjoy the act of giving him oral. I really want to do it again and hopefully will soon. I've enjoyed women using strap ons and dildos on me for years and think I'm ready for the real thing. The problem is when about to hook up with a guy, I chicken out. How do I get over that? I just recently had sex with a man's wife while he watched. I've always wanted to do that but found that I couldn't stay hard and was uncomfortable with him watching ike that. Oh well, I won't let that scare me away from exploring further. I have bi female friends I talk to about these things and that helps.I have one bi male friend but none of my other friends know my secret . I've been lucky lately in that some if the women I've dated were cool with my fantasies and even willing to participate. Anyway, thanks for listening . Any thoughts, comments and or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.