I'm at a point in my life, where I'm not sure exactly what I'm looking for. It seems that every time I meet someone or begin dating, I have strong feelings for that person and I desire a long term relationship. I guess you can say I get attached. I'm willing to be patient, but I wish I had a girl to express myself to and keep me company. I don't like being single, but sometimes I feel like it's for the best. I'm just lonely, and not 100% sure if I want to get seriously involved, I hate not having a girlfriend. I met a girl at a bar (a very bad place to meet someone you're going date) on a Tuesday night. She was with some friends that I knew, we immediately started talking. I thought she was really cute. We got a long really well and her friends said it seemed like she was interested, and I could tell there was a something (you know) between us. She told me that she has a boyfriend (that's when I should have forgotten about this girl). He was at work, and they have been dating for 6 months, she didn't sound too enthused. They have trust issues, and she thinks he cheated on her, but he "said" that he was just taking a girl to a movie? I dunno. We agreed we hate liars, and she said she has a tough time lying... So I asked if she wanted to hang out with me, and she said she did want to. So I got her number, and he texted a little. This girl stood me up, and said she was going to call me then she didn't. Either she's hanging out with her boyfriend or she's blowing me off. I just don't understand why she gave me her number....we got a long so well. Obviously I'm delusional, I really like her. Even though we just me and have only seen each other once. I really want to get to know her but she doesn't seem like she's worth all the hassle I'm going to have to go through just to hang out with her. Plus she likes to drink, I guess it's ok, I did the same thing when I was 21. I've met my fair share of girls - things just don't work out or they have their issues. Or we just don't have the chemistry. Or we start a relationship that lasts for months, nothing too serious, even though I think about committing myself to her, because of my strong feelings. I love flirting, and want to be with a caring person, I guess I'm just going through a difficult time. Just thought I would vent. I should just focus on school and hang out with friends.