... for sex for months now. I have told her that I have a girlfriend- and that I wish to remain faithful (that I WILL remain faithful). This only serves to increase her desire. To make things worse... she is the girls close friend. Okay. So how did this happen? She knows I love to drink. Like an idiot I went over to where she lives one night (she invited me over to plan my gf's bday party). She provided liquor. I was confused as to why her other friends weren't there as well. She told me that she had met with them earlier. Beyond being the guy who plays along and pretends that there is no surprise, leads her into the house, and gets a kiss when she says "thank you" I wondered why I was there and what she suspected my involvement would be. We looked at different catering companies for about an hour discussing whether we should go with this country's food-or-that (we decided on Italian since that is her favorite) and (after thirty more minutes) we decided on a caterer. This is where it gets very fuzzy. I know I'm a jocular guy and takes things pretty lightly (unless someone misuses grammar or arrives at a conclusion that is logically inappropriate) but I'm being serious. I was almost drunk. I had two more shots with this girl and went to the restroom. When I got back she had a mixed drink for me. "Hell" I thought "I'm getting free liquor for free." (I'm often redundant when intoxicated and thinking to myself). I know it's completely horrible, illegal, and plain dumb to do; but I had no intentions of staying the night there. Like a fuzzy bus with a dumptruck on top of it hit me. I was out. I just completely blacked out. I don't remember what happened until 14:00 hrs the following day. Fortunately it was a Saturday so I didn't have work; but jeez. She had left a note saying she was out and that she'd be back. I didn't smell odd, I was in my same clothes and everything. The only thing I thought was weird is that, before I left, I saw a condom wrapper in the bathroom trash. Sure, she could have had a gent over- but she usually isn't the fly-by-fucknight kind of girl and she was single. She had left a key for me (to be returned whenever I next saw her) so I left after locking up. (yes I ended that with a preposition). Two days later, she sends me pictures of my erect penis. I'm pretty sure that it's mine as I've taken various photos from various angles. I never sent her any and I doubt my girlfriend did. Also, the stuff on the sides look like the drapes and a quarter of a Marilyn Monroe picture she has. I'm obviously freaked out. I'm wondering how she achieved an erection out of me while I was under the sedation of alcohol and, perhaps, something else. I know it's possible; but hard. She's been going on-and-on about hwo she wants to do this with me and that with me but swears left and right that she only got me hard and nothing else happened. When I asked her why there was a condom in the trash she got very defensive and rather mean with her response. "Why were you fucking going through my trash, you weirdo?" I told her that it was -on top of the various things she had in there. She hasn't answered me yet. My GF's birthday in in two days from now and I suspect that things will be awkward. I know that the mature and right thing would be to tell her what transpired... But these girls have been friends since the 7th grade. Also, it's been about six days since it happened. She'll be furious on many counts. I want to wait until after her birthday to tell her, but I know that, that can lead to more drama. Ergo--- "you HELD on to this information and laughed and joked while she and I drank and ate together? How could you?" But I honestly want for her to have a care free birthday before she ends her friendship. Also... I'm afraid that she'll end things with me as well. I did make the poor decision to go over there and get drunk. I know that there could be a possible charge I can make (especially with the texts she has sent me) but that certain drugs leave the system quickly and wouldn't show up on a toxicology report.