I have a couple of sex issues I'm dealing with. I have a huge crush on a girl who knows it but we don't ever have a sexual relationship. But I get so turned on and have to jerk off until my cock is sore when I think of her getting boned by someone else's big dick. And here's the next part, I feel humiliated by it so I want to be even more humiliated and I think I want to get worked over by a nice big fat cock, and I'm a straight guy. I think I want some cock because it will help me see what she is getting and how it feels. I think my jerk offs would be very intense once I know how a big meaty cock feels in her mouth, by knowing how it feels in mine, knowing thats what shes getting. Any input appreciated.