I have kept a secret for many years, and I wish to share this secret here. Years ago (long before I met my wife, and long before the internet) I phone-flirted with a woman who was a school teacher. We were both in our early twenties. I was quite thin and I was told that she was quite overweight (I hadn't met her yet). Lemme tell ya something: thin men have a plethora of overweight women to choose from. I don't know why overweight women have a thing for thin men, but they do. Anyway, after quite a bit of phone-flirting, this chick wanted to meet me. She was quite clear that she wanted to jump my bones (she'd seen pics of me). Now, I had never been with an overweight woman. Alhough I had been with some women in the past who were absolute bombshells, I have always believed that weight was not as important - that overweight people can still be great lovers. So, I drove over to her place, knowing perfectly well that we were gonna have sex. She certainly was overweight. I wasn't expecting to be so turned off by her body. I wasn't there for very long before this chick was all over me. I've never had any problems getting erections and this was no exception. So, we peeled off our clothes, I put on a condom, and we started going at it. .. now this is where things get unusual. Something happened to me that had never happened before. As we were having sex, I was looking at her body and I was getting really, really turned off. And then I felt horrible for that. And, pretty soon, it was clear to me that I wasn't going to cum. In fact, I was losing my erection. That has NEVER happened to me during sex. I didn't know what to do. I did the only thing I could think of doing. I faked an orgasm. I'm a guy, and I faked an orgasm. I figured that, since I was wearing a condom, I could get away with it. And I did. Now, guys don't talk about this, and so I've never, in my life, heard of a guy faking an orgasm. But I had a condom on, I was going limp, and this was the only way I could think of dealing with it. I felt horrible. I cleaned myself up and left. And I broke off contact with her. After that, she was (I am told) very mad at me. She felt like I had been an asshole... that I was only phone-flirting with her to get laid and after I got my wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am I said, 'see yea'. That's not true. The truth is that I was so turned off by her fat body that I lost my erection. But to tell her that truth would be really, really devastating to her. I never told her the truth. I figured that it would be better for her to live her life hating me and thinking I'm an asshole than for me to deliver that blow to her ego. After that, I entirely gave up casual sex.