Mittimer

I don't know how many of you actually read the blogs, but for those of you who do, I'm sure you're ready for a more positive vibe coming from this side of the forum.

Not much to say on my front. It was damn hot today but I did get to the farmers market and got some amazing fruit. I spent $20 on 2 pineapples, 2 watermelons, 4 cantaloups, 4 gala apples the size of my husbands fist and 2lbs of yellow summer squash. I LOVE the farmers market.

I've got all of the fruit (minus...

I know few actually read these blogs so I'm more so writing this for myself then anyone else. I want to be clear that I'm not being emo, whiny or anything else of the sort, I just need to vent my angry, frustration, confusion and everything else I'm feeling right now. I hope you all can understand that. Bear with me, this will be random.. I'm just putting my thoughts down is all.

Now...where to start....


I was speaking with a fellow forum member this morning about...

I need a distraction.

I've never been so emotionally broken and drained.

I don't need your "I'm sorry's"
I don't need your prayers,
I sure as hell don't need your "I know how you must be feeling" because you have no idea.


What I need right now is a distraction.

For whatever reason, those words popped into my head and continue to play over and over. It's like a song that you listen to and have the same verse stuck there for the entire day.

Though, I woke up out of a light sleep and instantly that's the first thing I thought.

Who the "you" is, I haven't a clue.

I will however say this, I love the smile that my husband gets, almost in his sleep while I trace my hands down his body.

He just did...

Work is kicking my ass.

I never thought sitting at a computer all day for work would be as exhausting as it is.

Plus,

the green eyed monster in me came out this morning...that hasn't happen in a long time.