whats wrong with me? im straight, but cant stop sucking my friends cock

it all started with a huge thing for my best friends girlfriend. she was 5'5, 110IBS and very sexual. she loved to suck cock more than anything. he dateed her for 2 yrs. a year after i got to spend 2 weeks fucking her. she took my virginity and gave me hour long blowjobs. about everyone would agree im more attractive than my friend by alot. but she ditched me after 2 weeks.

i gained an inferiority complex about it and eventually started fantasising him fucking her, not me. i couldnt explain it, but i envied him for awhile. eventually he got a new GF and after a year we all got drunk together and he wanted a 3some. it turned out to be me watching him fuck her brains out for 2 hours.

few weeks later he caught me and her makingout. this ended our friendship and i started dating her for 2 months. then she cheated on me and fucked him a few times. he rubbed it in telling me how he nailed her from behind over the back of my couch. i got so turned on thinking about it and pretended to be mad. i literally jerked off afterwards.

a month passes and i miss my bestfriend. he agrees to let me come over to talk. i bring beer. we sit at a card table and get drunk. we talk about girls and sex and how hes pissed at me. eventually i ask if he would ever let a guy give him head. he says yes.

so i say lets go upstairs. we enter the living room and i tell him to have a seat. he says "dude i thought u were just kidding". I say, "no i want to suck your cock so bad". he sits down quickly.

I then got down on my knees and started to rub my hands and face all over his dick thru his jeans. i felt how big and hard it was and became a bit intimidated becuz he was obviously bigger than me. i unbuckled his belt and unzipped his fly then struggled to pull his cock out of his silk boxers.

once i got it out i began stroking him for about a minute until something took over me and i indulged myself literally jamming his big cock into my mouth. i sucked up and down, licked his shaft and even swirled my tongue around it like a lolipop. to my surprise i was fully hard and pre-cumming like crazy without him even touching me. this never happened before.

i kept sucking and experimenting with techniques until i felt his hands on my head. he pushed me down and i deepthroated his nice, hard cock. then suddenly i felt a way i never felt before. i felt completely submissive and under his control. normally i am very cocky and competitive with him and now here i am, on my knees with another man's cock in my mouth. i felt very dirty but yet i was more turned on than i had ever been.

i then opened my eyes and looked up at him watching me with his cock in my mouth. it was a look of complete, utter satisfaction. his gf cheating on him no longer was a problem anymore. afterall, i was the one bent over on my knees sucking his cock. i could tell he liked it and it was obvious, i was pretty much willing to do anything for him.

after about 45 mins, i realized he was purposely not cumming. i think he wasnt sure enough to come into my mouth. i told him i wanted to see him cum. he started jacking off for me until a huge fucking load of cum blasted up and all over the place. i closed my eyes and let him cum allover my face. he gave me a very messy facial. i loved it.

It must not have been enough for him becuz after a 5 min break he started touching and rubbing me. he started to undress me and pulled my pants down. he was sitting on the couch still so i got up there with my pants at my ankles and started sucking him off again. i was on my knees blowing him. i was in the same position of a chick would be in when you fuck her from behind. he jerked my off while i gave head.

I blew my load after about 90 seconds i was so turned on. i kept sucking his cock anyway. with a girl, i would have been done for an hour at least. but i was so into him i stayed hard. i suck his dick for awhile until he told me to get on the floor.

lying down with my back to the floor, he took his pants off and started to fuck my mouth in the 69 position. we blew eachother for about 5 minutes. my 6.5" cock and his 8-9" cock.

i got scared and told him i had to go.

eventually i saw him again and all i could think about was blowing him again. i wasnt sure how to approach it while being sober, so i just asked, "can i suck your cock?".

we were in his car. me in the passenger, leaning over the shifter to suck his cock again. after awhile, he starts rubbing me thru my jeans. then he does something that makes me feel like a complete little bitch. he pulls my pants down just far enough so my bare ass is hanging out. i felt very vulnerable, but enjoyed it at the same time. he jerked me off while i sucked his cock, again i only lasted like 30 seconds.

i prolly gave him oral about 5 times and he always came on his boxers. i told him on the phone before we met that night that i was gonna treat him tonight. i didnt end up being in the mood later so i wasnt making any moves.after it was quiet and me n him were the only ones awake, he put some porno on. i wasnt going to do anything, but he said something like "get on your knees". my pride fell right thru and the idea of him telling me this time turned me on at a scary rate.

i noticed him being more aggressive and more to the point. or maybe i was getting better because after about 3 minutes, he pulled my hair and tensed up, then pushed my head very HARD down onto his cock as his big dick literally pumped a huge load of cum into my mouth. this was unexpected but there was so much of it i had to swollow it. after he was done unloading down my throat, he said "damn, that was the best head i ever had".

everytime we hangout now, i suck his cock. after the first time we did it, he never gave me head again. it was always me on my knees. but mostly because i like it so much and am always making moves to give him head. ive gotten so good at it i can get him off in about 20 seconds. depending on his mood, i get jacked off while i suck him now and then.

i love sucking his dick so much and he loves the idea of me doing it more than anything. sometimes we both sneak away from our girlfriends just to do oral for 20 mins or so.

i have fucked many girls. so has he. im not attracted to guys, i never have been into anal or anything. ive never done anything with any guy but him. and its always cocksucking. I love it more than pussy. i would rather suck his cock then fuck my dream girl.

he turns me on so much and i love it when he uses me for a quick blowjob. what sucks is i dont get to see him but once a month or maybe 2. im always thinking about it and wanting more.

so whats wrong with me? why do i only desire to suck his cock?? am i straight, bi, gay? or maybe i just love being submissive. i can't tell, but would like to know if anyone else has had a similar experience?

i am open to sucking someone else cock if I thought they were attractive. i dont get to give as much head as i liked, so since i've started sucking 4 years ago, i am toying with the idea of finding someone just to suck their dick. it's like an addiction. i cant help it.

Sorry if this is rude or off topic but have u ever tried writing erotic fiction your descriptions are very erotic and turned me on a little. And btw i think most people are bi-curious theres nothing wrong with being bi-sexual.

The simple fact that you're willing to go out and find someone else to suck dick for makes you at least bi curious. If you aren't particularly attracted to other men, then you probably aren't bi sexual or gay.

Like you said, it could be a submission thing. Look into the bdsm community around you. There are a few websites that can help you find them (if you're curious I can send you links via PM, just drop me one asking for them). Once you do that, you can build a proper relationship with someone who likes to dominate you, someone you find attractive and someone who can help you explore the type of relationship you're asking for.


There isn't anything wrong with what you're doing. Sexual exploration is natural and helps mold us into who we are helps us above all, find out what makes us happy.

I'm glad you found something that makes you happy.

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Turned me on as well. I wouldn't mind living your story one time. I'd like to suck off a friend or two, but I'm too worried it wouldn't stay quiet. Pretty hot to think about.

No doubt your story turned me on too! WOO HOO

I agree wit the others..maybe you are bi-curious......nothing wrong with sucking cock. Id love to watch 2 guys going at it...I think that would be HOT!!! mmmmmmm

I read your story a few times, and conclude dude, you are not straight, but have bi or gay tendencies. Nothing wrong with that if that's your thing. The fact you want to find antoehr man to suck just yell's to me you want to come out and not be straight.JMHO

Ditto those about the story being hot. Not sure if you meant it to so sound erotic but it certainly got me fired up

I would say that probably are bi-curious as well. I would say most straight men would probably not have a desire to perform oral sex on another man. But equally so, I wouldn't worry so much as labelling yourself as gay or straight; perhaps you're just a very sexual person who is attracted to men but likes the male dominance that your friend brings.
Either way, I'd definitely look into writing more tales

According to me, you should get a girlfriend and start sex with her. Once you do this, you will forget those negative thoughts.

I will be as direct as possible. If you are a man and can't stop sucking dick and want to find more dick to suck you are not straight. It is your life and your choice on how you will behave sexually but I really think you need to be honest with yourself. There is many people who share your desires and as voiced in this thread many females do like to be involved in this kind of activity so if you want to swing both ways do so. I think the bigger more important issue is with you accepting yourself for who you are. Life is short. Live it to the fullest with no regrets.

Sounds like you're bisexual. There is nothing wrong with you.

Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired signifies, in the final sense, a theft from those who hungery and are not fed, those who are cold and not clothed. - Dwight D. Eisenhower

If I had an attractive male friend with a nice cock who wanted to 69, and I didn't have to worry about that getting out. I'd probably take advtange of it at least once.

To me its not gay if you're just trying it out lol.

Exactly my dilemma. I think its just the thought of giving someone that level of pleasure is erotic.

You're not alone. And yes your post got me really hot.

I too *love* to give head. It is without question my favorite sex act. However, being in a LT hetero relationship this is not something I do very often but when I do... I *LOVE* it.

I don't otherwise have any other gay interests. No desire for a relationship. I rarely ever even look at guys as desirable (but women, yes). No desire to receive anal (I tried it once, didn't like it), not much interest in giving it and I don't even care if the other guy sucks me or not. I'll cum where I cum. All I want is that *wonderful* feeling of a cock in my mouth even just against my face and that *wonderful* taste and feel of cum.

I'm not sure what the sexuality is of it, I don't care. Gay, Bi-, curious, whatever, this desire, fetish, whatever, it's part of my sexuality and I enjoy it. I suck dicks and that's it. Nothing more.

Two years ago I got my female partner a lifelike dildo. I didn't tell her it was also so I could suck it whenever I was alone and masturbating.....

I love to give head.

Before I actually began practicing m4m sex....I fantasized about sucking off some of my classmates. It was particularly weird when I'd walk in the next morning and jerked off to them the night before.

Its best to find like-minded guys who are willing to do the same. I did run into 2 guys in High School who seemed to be okay with doing mutual oral, but it just never manifested itself LOL.

You sound normal to me. Don't worry so much just enjoy it while it lasts.